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its 2:30 in the afternoon
i've been basically sleeping since last night, at or around 9 o'clock.
i'm a little conflicted today
i'm a little lonely
i'm a little undecided or undetermined
i don't want to do my--any of my--work
*************
ok, in two seconds... ok, maybe 10
i've been made to feel a bit better
>smooshy smile
i think the coffee i have been drinking from the common cabinet belongs to someone, as it is now in someone's cabinet
i had some today, but i won't from now on
i need to do laundry
and i feel like i'll be taking my car out today
i'm not sure what is going on, or more specifically, what it is i've been invited to do.
naw,
it doesn't matter
i just don't want to be lonely and cold in this place all by myself
and i don't want to really be with anyone else right now either.
>shrug
life
life is a shrug
ATLAS SHRUGGED
you know, I did start-start reading that book
i heart ayn rand
its hard not to
her writing is something i can access and relate to
some of my friends seem to consider it bullshit, but then, i see where they and their life aspirations are predicatable (at least) taking them, and i think, 'what bullshit is *this*? well, if *not* reading ayn rand, or sartre, or believing every word written by lovecraft leaves them going *that* way, then clearly, I'll just have to read their respective canons and take my life my own way.
that makes me feel a little bit better
i like feeling better
i like feeling melancholy as well, though
yeah, yeah
i do
i need it
i need my beautiful, my crafted, my friend, misery
One of my other favorite, most favoritist of favorites of art pieces:
Its an engraving,
by Albrect Durer
Melancholia I
or maybe its II?
eep!
well, i love it
I'm on a casual lookout for it, I want it
I'd pull a Thomas Crown for it.
Well, among other things I'd pull one for.
if you know what i'm sayin'
and some of you, hmmm... maybe not.
no, yes!
some of you know what I am saying.
*******************
mmmm....
good sigh
thanks for more
>blush
what can I say.
well, besides whatever i want
so, i have put the violent femmes back in
and i've been listening to something i don't know during my showers in the morning
ha, with all the stuff i acquired before i left for chicago, it could be even be something that is already in my possession
very ha
but whatever.
36-24-36
i might not have those measurements
but i got somethin'
you know,
i think its still my innocence
i've noticed when i modify the way i walk
the expression on my face
"
i'm gnawing on the knowledge, that i haven't burnt
and i'm learning things that i should have already learnt
"
"
you'll find out
that america is the home of the hypocrite
'
'
'
american dream so f-f-full-of-it
check out some fact, the facts not the lies
you'll find out, a big surprise
right between the eyes
that america is the home of the hypocrite
"
"
well, i'm reading this poem
and its so profound
and i, i like its rhthym
and i, i like its sound
'by a very famous poet
no critic can criticize
and then i pause a moment and i start to realize
he's tellin'
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
"
oh yeah, quietriot833
has a contemporary in her cousin
and more weirdness, he app'd to vc
so that's two randomness-es in 2 days regarding my alma mater
strange
founders day
i'm thinking about it.
hey!
yeah, you know what i'm thinking
now you should be thinking about it too
not that i may even be able to go......................
............but w......e.......... y... o .. u....
it should be thought about.....
"
every time i look at that ugly lake
it reminds me of me
"
fucking prom
i'm still angry over it
i went to enough of them and everything
but that last one
still angry
still forgiven
but still angry
i'm capable of forgiveness
at least, i was
no, i am
limitations
oh, dear me.
i'm sorry i wasn't easier
i'm glad i was so meaningful
i can't tell you how much it was all worth it
primal scream
of course
how many of those are in one lifetime?
"
i swear swear n-ne'er happen to her...
she had gone, out the window
catch me if i'm falling
catch me if i'm falling
he was smart he was wise, he profoundly philosophized
one day he said, no, i gotta go
out the window
"
choice
i bring myself to you
i choose life
i choose death
i choose
i hope this record does not come back to haunt me
i've been careful in a lot of regards
"we all go out the window"
yeah, its a slipping through
a non-traditional way of getting the hell out of dodge
and so what
the earth's gravity keeps your energy here
you keep it intact
but you are just matter and energy
and so what
so what
you won't remember anything anyway
i've been reading ahead in my history text
(go me)
"
i need someone
a person to talk to
someone to care to love
could it be you
could it be you
situation looks rough
and i start to panic
you can all just kiss off into the air
you do it all the time
do it all the time
yeahyeah
yeahyeah!
do it all the time
--i hope you know that this will go down on your permanent record
OH YEAH?????
WELL DON'T BE SO DISTRESSED
DID I HAPPEN TO MENTION
BE IMPRESSED
[yeah, that is fucking right]
[fucking right]
i take one ... cause you left me
two
for my family
3 heartache
4 headache
5 loneliness!
6 for my sorrow
7 n-NO-o tomorrow
8 i forgot what eight was for
9 FOR THE LOST GOD
10
10
10
10
EVERYTHINGEVERYTHINGEVERYTHINGEVERYTHING
YOU CAN ALL JUST KISS OFF INTO THE AIR
BEHIND MY BACK
you sit and stare
feeling me bad
but i don't mind
do it all the time
do it all the time
time
time
time
time
do it all the time
"
send.
i've been basically sleeping since last night, at or around 9 o'clock.
i'm a little conflicted today
i'm a little lonely
i'm a little undecided or undetermined
i don't want to do my--any of my--work
*************
ok, in two seconds... ok, maybe 10
i've been made to feel a bit better
>smooshy smile
i think the coffee i have been drinking from the common cabinet belongs to someone, as it is now in someone's cabinet
i had some today, but i won't from now on
i need to do laundry
and i feel like i'll be taking my car out today
i'm not sure what is going on, or more specifically, what it is i've been invited to do.
naw,
it doesn't matter
i just don't want to be lonely and cold in this place all by myself
and i don't want to really be with anyone else right now either.
>shrug
life
life is a shrug
ATLAS SHRUGGED
you know, I did start-start reading that book
i heart ayn rand
its hard not to
her writing is something i can access and relate to
some of my friends seem to consider it bullshit, but then, i see where they and their life aspirations are predicatable (at least) taking them, and i think, 'what bullshit is *this*? well, if *not* reading ayn rand, or sartre, or believing every word written by lovecraft leaves them going *that* way, then clearly, I'll just have to read their respective canons and take my life my own way.
that makes me feel a little bit better
i like feeling better
i like feeling melancholy as well, though
yeah, yeah
i do
i need it
i need my beautiful, my crafted, my friend, misery
One of my other favorite, most favoritist of favorites of art pieces:
Its an engraving,
by Albrect Durer
Melancholia I
or maybe its II?
eep!
well, i love it
I'm on a casual lookout for it, I want it
I'd pull a Thomas Crown for it.
Well, among other things I'd pull one for.
if you know what i'm sayin'
and some of you, hmmm... maybe not.
no, yes!
some of you know what I am saying.
*******************
mmmm....
good sigh
thanks for more
>blush
what can I say.
well, besides whatever i want
so, i have put the violent femmes back in
and i've been listening to something i don't know during my showers in the morning
ha, with all the stuff i acquired before i left for chicago, it could be even be something that is already in my possession
very ha
but whatever.
36-24-36
i might not have those measurements
but i got somethin'
you know,
i think its still my innocence
i've noticed when i modify the way i walk
the expression on my face
"
i'm gnawing on the knowledge, that i haven't burnt
and i'm learning things that i should have already learnt
"
"
you'll find out
that america is the home of the hypocrite
'
'
'
american dream so f-f-full-of-it
check out some fact, the facts not the lies
you'll find out, a big surprise
right between the eyes
that america is the home of the hypocrite
"
"
well, i'm reading this poem
and its so profound
and i, i like its rhthym
and i, i like its sound
'by a very famous poet
no critic can criticize
and then i pause a moment and i start to realize
he's tellin'
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
lies!
"
oh yeah, quietriot833
has a contemporary in her cousin
and more weirdness, he app'd to vc
so that's two randomness-es in 2 days regarding my alma mater
strange
founders day
i'm thinking about it.
hey!
yeah, you know what i'm thinking
now you should be thinking about it too
not that i may even be able to go......................
............but w......e.......... y... o .. u....
it should be thought about.....
"
every time i look at that ugly lake
it reminds me of me
"
fucking prom
i'm still angry over it
i went to enough of them and everything
but that last one
still angry
still forgiven
but still angry
i'm capable of forgiveness
at least, i was
no, i am
limitations
oh, dear me.
i'm sorry i wasn't easier
i'm glad i was so meaningful
i can't tell you how much it was all worth it
primal scream
of course
how many of those are in one lifetime?
"
i swear swear n-ne'er happen to her...
she had gone, out the window
catch me if i'm falling
catch me if i'm falling
he was smart he was wise, he profoundly philosophized
one day he said, no, i gotta go
out the window
"
choice
i bring myself to you
i choose life
i choose death
i choose
i hope this record does not come back to haunt me
i've been careful in a lot of regards
"we all go out the window"
yeah, its a slipping through
a non-traditional way of getting the hell out of dodge
and so what
the earth's gravity keeps your energy here
you keep it intact
but you are just matter and energy
and so what
so what
you won't remember anything anyway
i've been reading ahead in my history text
(go me)
"
i need someone
a person to talk to
someone to care to love
could it be you
could it be you
situation looks rough
and i start to panic
you can all just kiss off into the air
you do it all the time
do it all the time
yeahyeah
yeahyeah!
do it all the time
--i hope you know that this will go down on your permanent record
OH YEAH?????
WELL DON'T BE SO DISTRESSED
DID I HAPPEN TO MENTION
BE IMPRESSED
[yeah, that is fucking right]
[fucking right]
i take one ... cause you left me
two
for my family
3 heartache
4 headache
5 loneliness!
6 for my sorrow
7 n-NO-o tomorrow
8 i forgot what eight was for
9 FOR THE LOST GOD
10
10
10
10
EVERYTHINGEVERYTHINGEVERYTHINGEVERYTHING
YOU CAN ALL JUST KISS OFF INTO THE AIR
BEHIND MY BACK
you sit and stare
feeling me bad
but i don't mind
do it all the time
do it all the time
time
time
time
time
do it all the time
"
send.