Panic
So... last night at derby practice, one of the drills was jumping. I know I have to do this in order to pass the minimum skills test for WFTDA.... Of course, I was in the group that had to do jumping drills first. Oh joy of joys.
Mind you, I've only been back on skates less than one month since having to take off two months for having dislocated and fracturing my right elbow. I. Was. Scared. But, I did it... and I fell... and I didn't get hurt.
The worst part about the experience is that I had psyched myself out completely to the point of inducing a panic attack - which, although I did work through it and did the jumping drill repeatedly to get my self over the issue - it still sucked. I have really got to get over this fear-thing (habit) I've developed since the fall (Dec 3, 2011), I'm not the only one it's affecting. Because of my fear, I'm affecting my entire team - and not in the way I want to. As Dazey (our skating Coach) has put it, it's a bad habit that I have to break out of.
The one good thing about this... is the fact that I did fall... didn't sustain an injury, got back up and kept at it. Jumping still scares me, but it's no longer the terrifying experience it was.
*chuckle* I even managed some four-point falls last night as well... not *intentionally* mind you... They were double knee falls that stuck instead of sliding. Gotta remember to lean back more to get that "rock star" pose going.
Or maybe, subconsciously I was wanting to see if I could do the 4-point fall without pain...
Mind you, I've only been back on skates less than one month since having to take off two months for having dislocated and fracturing my right elbow. I. Was. Scared. But, I did it... and I fell... and I didn't get hurt.
The worst part about the experience is that I had psyched myself out completely to the point of inducing a panic attack - which, although I did work through it and did the jumping drill repeatedly to get my self over the issue - it still sucked. I have really got to get over this fear-thing (habit) I've developed since the fall (Dec 3, 2011), I'm not the only one it's affecting. Because of my fear, I'm affecting my entire team - and not in the way I want to. As Dazey (our skating Coach) has put it, it's a bad habit that I have to break out of.
The one good thing about this... is the fact that I did fall... didn't sustain an injury, got back up and kept at it. Jumping still scares me, but it's no longer the terrifying experience it was.
*chuckle* I even managed some four-point falls last night as well... not *intentionally* mind you... They were double knee falls that stuck instead of sliding. Gotta remember to lean back more to get that "rock star" pose going.
Or maybe, subconsciously I was wanting to see if I could do the 4-point fall without pain...