Okay, so....
Really fucking weird dream that I had last night.
Brent was at my house for some reason, and he had large amounts of drugs on him. By large amounts, I specify by pointing out the gallon size freezer bags that my mom uses, one half full of smack, the other stuffed with coke. We were getting REALLY close. like, a little frighteningly stalker close, while talking about life and coming closer and closer together on my bed in my room....
...Then... Sam called Brent on his cell phone. They talked for a little while, and he kind of argued and explained why he had been at my house for so long, then he hung up on her, and turned to me and started laughing in the little way that he does. Then he said, "Sam thinks you owe me money for the candy..."
Then, he suddenly got a little playfully serious, and asked me, "...so... do you want any candy?"
Mind you, I call speedballs candy, because I take those bitches like candy and can't control myself.
So, of course, I said, "Yes, my love," and he gave me everything that he had for a mere five dollars.
I felt like I was really cheating him, but it seemed that he didn't really mind, so, I asked him if he would test it with me, and, surprisingly, he agreed.
So, I mixed up the speedballs and got out my bullet, and we took at least four lines each. That's really fucking weird, if you know Brent.
After that, Brent and I left my house, and went, by a sled dog team, mind you, through the mountains in Bear Valley and over to a small town on the other side of the mountain. It was an over-night trip, I remember specifically, because it was dark when we started, and it was the middle of the day when we arrived. I would also like to point out that there was snow while we where travelling, and, it was unseasonably warm and humid when we arrived.
Oh, and, Rachel was with us. I don't know if that is significant.
Well, it turns out that our mission in this little town is to get a lot of people to come back to the Greencastle/Mercesburg area. We, as in Brent, Rachel, and I, entered a very scary turn-of-the-century deep south country store. I Got Rachel to distract the very bitchy over-protective owner lady, because Rachel is good at that kind of thing, and she got caught up in the history of cookies, or something of that nature, while Brent and I tried to go into the backroom behind the counter, unnoticed. Well, Rachel wavered in her attepts, and the carzy bitch turned around and threatened us, telling us to "go the hell home."
Right as she was about to attack us and kick us out of the store, Tex came out of the back, and asked her what the hell she was doing. There was something of me squealing like a little girl and jumping over to hug him, and he picked me up and asked me what I was doing "all the way over here." I told him I was looking for a few people, and he told me there was a game of spades going on in the back, and I would find everyone that I wanted back there.
So, Brent and I went back there, and the room was FULL of people that I haven't seen in LONG time. Robbie was there, Aaron was there, some guys from Mercesburg that none of you would know where in there, and, Meighan was sitting in the shadows in the corner.
I came up behind Robbie, and I tried to get him to stop singing, and to just listen to me, but, for some reason, he couldn't hear me. Finally one of the other guys got him to stop, and I just loked at him for a minute, then I asked him how he could have ever left to come to... "this."
There was a lot of crying and hugging that came after this, wherein Robbie explained to me that his life in Mercesburg wasn't "real" and he desparately missed his home. That seemed to be the general opinion of the entire group, and I was completely destroyed.
Tex and Brent led me out of the room, and outside, both trying to console me, but I had the unshakable feeling that everything was lost and out of my reach. I felt that all of my friends that were in that room were gone to me, and there was nothing that I could ever do about it, because they were all truly happy in there new position.
Then, Brent and I started te walk home, on a dusty and humid country road. I have no idea where the fuck Rachel got to, but she was nowhere to be found, and we didn't look.
Then.... my mom woke me up.
So, guys, play Psychologist. What the fuck does all this mean? And, I probably should point out, it still feels like all the people in that room, all of my closest friends, are lost to me, and all happy to be in that position. It paralyses me with sadness.
Brent was at my house for some reason, and he had large amounts of drugs on him. By large amounts, I specify by pointing out the gallon size freezer bags that my mom uses, one half full of smack, the other stuffed with coke. We were getting REALLY close. like, a little frighteningly stalker close, while talking about life and coming closer and closer together on my bed in my room....
...Then... Sam called Brent on his cell phone. They talked for a little while, and he kind of argued and explained why he had been at my house for so long, then he hung up on her, and turned to me and started laughing in the little way that he does. Then he said, "Sam thinks you owe me money for the candy..."
Then, he suddenly got a little playfully serious, and asked me, "...so... do you want any candy?"
Mind you, I call speedballs candy, because I take those bitches like candy and can't control myself.
So, of course, I said, "Yes, my love," and he gave me everything that he had for a mere five dollars.
I felt like I was really cheating him, but it seemed that he didn't really mind, so, I asked him if he would test it with me, and, surprisingly, he agreed.
So, I mixed up the speedballs and got out my bullet, and we took at least four lines each. That's really fucking weird, if you know Brent.
After that, Brent and I left my house, and went, by a sled dog team, mind you, through the mountains in Bear Valley and over to a small town on the other side of the mountain. It was an over-night trip, I remember specifically, because it was dark when we started, and it was the middle of the day when we arrived. I would also like to point out that there was snow while we where travelling, and, it was unseasonably warm and humid when we arrived.
Oh, and, Rachel was with us. I don't know if that is significant.
Well, it turns out that our mission in this little town is to get a lot of people to come back to the Greencastle/Mercesburg area. We, as in Brent, Rachel, and I, entered a very scary turn-of-the-century deep south country store. I Got Rachel to distract the very bitchy over-protective owner lady, because Rachel is good at that kind of thing, and she got caught up in the history of cookies, or something of that nature, while Brent and I tried to go into the backroom behind the counter, unnoticed. Well, Rachel wavered in her attepts, and the carzy bitch turned around and threatened us, telling us to "go the hell home."
Right as she was about to attack us and kick us out of the store, Tex came out of the back, and asked her what the hell she was doing. There was something of me squealing like a little girl and jumping over to hug him, and he picked me up and asked me what I was doing "all the way over here." I told him I was looking for a few people, and he told me there was a game of spades going on in the back, and I would find everyone that I wanted back there.
So, Brent and I went back there, and the room was FULL of people that I haven't seen in LONG time. Robbie was there, Aaron was there, some guys from Mercesburg that none of you would know where in there, and, Meighan was sitting in the shadows in the corner.
I came up behind Robbie, and I tried to get him to stop singing, and to just listen to me, but, for some reason, he couldn't hear me. Finally one of the other guys got him to stop, and I just loked at him for a minute, then I asked him how he could have ever left to come to... "this."
There was a lot of crying and hugging that came after this, wherein Robbie explained to me that his life in Mercesburg wasn't "real" and he desparately missed his home. That seemed to be the general opinion of the entire group, and I was completely destroyed.
Tex and Brent led me out of the room, and outside, both trying to console me, but I had the unshakable feeling that everything was lost and out of my reach. I felt that all of my friends that were in that room were gone to me, and there was nothing that I could ever do about it, because they were all truly happy in there new position.
Then, Brent and I started te walk home, on a dusty and humid country road. I have no idea where the fuck Rachel got to, but she was nowhere to be found, and we didn't look.
Then.... my mom woke me up.
So, guys, play Psychologist. What the fuck does all this mean? And, I probably should point out, it still feels like all the people in that room, all of my closest friends, are lost to me, and all happy to be in that position. It paralyses me with sadness.