Sometimes.....
There are these days where nothing happens, or seems to go the right way. Today, my friends, was one of those days. I was called a "religious anorexic" for the first time in my life, and a stupid junkie that abuses to achieve the perfect weight. God, people are really fucking stupid. It is obviously the reverse. You don't know the real me, motherfuckers.
Anyway, it sparked a nice conversation with my mom about not leaving used condoms and syringes on the beach when we go in July..... and, I think she is starting to suspect a few things. Don't ask how we got onto these subjects, by the way. My mom and I have a very "special" relationship. Fuck the world.
I didn't get to see my brother this week, and that is really starting to piss me off, because it went for over a year when we were hanging out together everyday, and I was actually happy because I had someone that could relate to my past and all, and now I NEVER get to see him. I have a lot of things that I need to vent about that only a brother, or someone that lived through it with you would be able to understand. And... yeah, I really fucking miss him, too. I have a plan that involves completely destroying the authoritive system in Pennsylvania. Who is with me?
Ah, fuck it. They would probably just arrest me for trying anyway, and I would like to try to stay free for as long as possible. I need to kill someone to validate the cause. I'm looking for volunteers for the blood sacrifice, because, the way I see it on this one, if I sacrifice myself for the cause, I will not be alive to basque in the glory of the pain and defeat of others, and THAT is the only real thing that brings me joy in life. And, yeah, did I mention, I am now labeled as a narcisisstic little bitch. My fucking god, thank you for the compliment, Scott. I am about to kill that bastard and quit the band, too.
All for the love of Adrian, and Richard, if that fucking selfish bastard ever decides to come back and make us whole again.
Whatever, I'm finished bitching now. And, yeah, if you read this one before shefsheef, or if you didn't even know that I, indeed, am shefsheef, look at the pic. Absolutely fucking awesome. This is the only thing that made me happy this weekend... then, I remembered that he is dead and I have absolutely no fucking chance. Life suck.
Anyway, it sparked a nice conversation with my mom about not leaving used condoms and syringes on the beach when we go in July..... and, I think she is starting to suspect a few things. Don't ask how we got onto these subjects, by the way. My mom and I have a very "special" relationship. Fuck the world.
I didn't get to see my brother this week, and that is really starting to piss me off, because it went for over a year when we were hanging out together everyday, and I was actually happy because I had someone that could relate to my past and all, and now I NEVER get to see him. I have a lot of things that I need to vent about that only a brother, or someone that lived through it with you would be able to understand. And... yeah, I really fucking miss him, too. I have a plan that involves completely destroying the authoritive system in Pennsylvania. Who is with me?
Ah, fuck it. They would probably just arrest me for trying anyway, and I would like to try to stay free for as long as possible. I need to kill someone to validate the cause. I'm looking for volunteers for the blood sacrifice, because, the way I see it on this one, if I sacrifice myself for the cause, I will not be alive to basque in the glory of the pain and defeat of others, and THAT is the only real thing that brings me joy in life. And, yeah, did I mention, I am now labeled as a narcisisstic little bitch. My fucking god, thank you for the compliment, Scott. I am about to kill that bastard and quit the band, too.
All for the love of Adrian, and Richard, if that fucking selfish bastard ever decides to come back and make us whole again.
Whatever, I'm finished bitching now. And, yeah, if you read this one before shefsheef, or if you didn't even know that I, indeed, am shefsheef, look at the pic. Absolutely fucking awesome. This is the only thing that made me happy this weekend... then, I remembered that he is dead and I have absolutely no fucking chance. Life suck.