my very first entry
well this is my first entry inot this journal and now tha ti sit down to write i cant think of everything i want to say. This marks a new start in my life. The past two months have shown me alot about myself and how i deal wiht other people. There are a lot of things about myself that i need and want to change. I dont want to be a control freak anymore. I am tired of always having to come up with all the answers for problems that i did not create. I have spent so much time trying to help other people define them selves that i lost touch with my self. A very special person helped me relize that. You know how some times right when thngs look their darkest something or someone comes along that just sheds light over everything. Well that is what i have found. Someone that whether they know it or not has been able to show me in two short months what i have not been able to see for 24 years. No more control issues from here on in i tak eit as it comes, day by day. What happens today is real. Tommorrow will take on a life of its own and i can deal wit it then. A smile is a terrible thing to loose and i had lost mine. But with change comes new challenges and in those challenges i found my smile again. Talk about a sappy pour your heart out opening entry. the short and skinny is that my life is in front of me and the future is so bright I'VE GOT TO WEAR SHADES!