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i'm sort of tired of myself. i'm sort of tired of my life. actually, i think i'm just tired from lack of sleep.
i only wish that i didn't have to be reminded of what happened and that i'm the only one it still affects. i wish it didn't, but i'm so tired of wishing for that. i wish things weren't awkward, but i'm tired of feeling guilty. it's not my place. i'm not blaming anyone, i'm just saying it feels crappy as hell to feel both guilty, like i completely over react, and justified at the same time. it's just a mental battle i've been having with myself for a while now. and i'm over it.
i only wish that i didn't have to be reminded of what happened and that i'm the only one it still affects. i wish it didn't, but i'm so tired of wishing for that. i wish things weren't awkward, but i'm tired of feeling guilty. it's not my place. i'm not blaming anyone, i'm just saying it feels crappy as hell to feel both guilty, like i completely over react, and justified at the same time. it's just a mental battle i've been having with myself for a while now. and i'm over it.