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I'm a little lost, a little lonely, and a little confused.
I realised today, I don't know a thing... about myself, my life... anything, and that's probably what's making me the most lonely of all. I had plans dammit, and so far, i've only been able to fulfill one of these plans... the rest have either fallen by the wayside, or just been abandoned all together, never to be seen again.
I've kind of got a feeling that the map I just threw out the window is somehow needed on this trip that I'm on at the moment.
I'm going back to uni this year, to (attempt to) finish my communications degree. I have a feeling that my grace period has run out, no more excuses, no more needs to get out of my system. I need to grow up. Unfortunately.
The scariest thing is that i'm not in the slightest way scared/nervous/excited... I'm blase about the whole experience... and when I get blase, I get bored... very very quickly.
I'm over Luke... when a guy starts quoting Damien Leith to me, the relationship is basically doomed... say what you want, but in your own words, not some Mark Holden penned, idol winning song.
I am jaded.
I am lost.
I am Courteney.
I am under construction, dancing to my own beat, and tripping over my shoes.
I am not 'Myself'.
I'll be back around my way again some time, leave a light on for me.
I realised today, I don't know a thing... about myself, my life... anything, and that's probably what's making me the most lonely of all. I had plans dammit, and so far, i've only been able to fulfill one of these plans... the rest have either fallen by the wayside, or just been abandoned all together, never to be seen again.
I've kind of got a feeling that the map I just threw out the window is somehow needed on this trip that I'm on at the moment.
I'm going back to uni this year, to (attempt to) finish my communications degree. I have a feeling that my grace period has run out, no more excuses, no more needs to get out of my system. I need to grow up. Unfortunately.
The scariest thing is that i'm not in the slightest way scared/nervous/excited... I'm blase about the whole experience... and when I get blase, I get bored... very very quickly.
I'm over Luke... when a guy starts quoting Damien Leith to me, the relationship is basically doomed... say what you want, but in your own words, not some Mark Holden penned, idol winning song.
I am jaded.
I am lost.
I am Courteney.
I am under construction, dancing to my own beat, and tripping over my shoes.
I am not 'Myself'.
I'll be back around my way again some time, leave a light on for me.