today 2/9/04
Damn its been along time since ive written in here...but i guess i should start again now that i have a ton of shit to get oof of my chest.First off..MY KNEE FUCKING HURTS!!!!!anyways ive come to the conclusion that girls suck. i wish they would make up their minds and stop fucking with me.. so my excursions with girls..this gets pretty annoying ... so i borke up with andrea because i didnt like her like that anymore and needed a change. and every day i go online she has a new away message saying something about being betrayed or about sex. well i got in a fight with her on saturday night because she thinks that i broke up with her because she wouldnt sleep with me but thats bullshit.if that was all i was looking for in a gilfriend i wouldve found some skank to get some from.but obviously i see how she thinks i am after 7 months. Although im not talking to her i still dont regret the seven months with her.i learned alot and i think it will make me a better person in the future.I dont think im going to talk to her again untill she matures some.although she didnt look like she was 15 she definatly acted like it. someday she'll make someone happy.
now on to the quest for someone to be with......
well first i thought steph... one because she is like everything im looking for now. she is like on the same wavelenght as me. two shes really fucking hott, i mean really. but this idea has gone to shit to many times. i thought that i revived it this weekend but i found out today that she was complaining that i was calling her again. but after i stopped talking to andrea i wanted to talk to someone.. it was all going good but it went to shit after i heard that.. maybe ill actually ask her about it but unless kaitlyn told her that i know she'll deny it..i wish girls would be straitforward sometimes.....then there is melissa, she is sue jenny's friend and shes wicked hott,i met her after i helped my mom with some melha dinner thing for my uncle tony(hes the potentate)and we went to friendlys after.i sat next to sue(considering she the only one there i knew..well that i would associate with,ugh no names(hill u know))but she sat across from me and she was cool. the next day i was talking to sue(i think she likes me but she went out with cam(and that would be just gross))and she said that (no name) and melissa thought i was cute(or hot i dont remember)but i was like cool cuz i thought that melissa was hott too. and i guess that she couldnt give me her sn because she was interested in someone else(personally i think that she just doesnt want us to hook up but whatever) so that avenue is closed so now in at an intersection filled with dead ends. and dont knwo what the fuck to to..DOES ANYONE KNOW OF ANY SINGLE GIRLS WHO ARENT A PAIN IN THE ASS AND WOULD BE INTERESTED?(not that i dont like to play the "game" but somepeople just fuck around with you for too long)well i guess ill stop writing and suck it up for another day...like always
now on to the quest for someone to be with......
well first i thought steph... one because she is like everything im looking for now. she is like on the same wavelenght as me. two shes really fucking hott, i mean really. but this idea has gone to shit to many times. i thought that i revived it this weekend but i found out today that she was complaining that i was calling her again. but after i stopped talking to andrea i wanted to talk to someone.. it was all going good but it went to shit after i heard that.. maybe ill actually ask her about it but unless kaitlyn told her that i know she'll deny it..i wish girls would be straitforward sometimes.....then there is melissa, she is sue jenny's friend and shes wicked hott,i met her after i helped my mom with some melha dinner thing for my uncle tony(hes the potentate)and we went to friendlys after.i sat next to sue(considering she the only one there i knew..well that i would associate with,ugh no names(hill u know))but she sat across from me and she was cool. the next day i was talking to sue(i think she likes me but she went out with cam(and that would be just gross))and she said that (no name) and melissa thought i was cute(or hot i dont remember)but i was like cool cuz i thought that melissa was hott too. and i guess that she couldnt give me her sn because she was interested in someone else(personally i think that she just doesnt want us to hook up but whatever) so that avenue is closed so now in at an intersection filled with dead ends. and dont knwo what the fuck to to..DOES ANYONE KNOW OF ANY SINGLE GIRLS WHO ARENT A PAIN IN THE ASS AND WOULD BE INTERESTED?(not that i dont like to play the "game" but somepeople just fuck around with you for too long)well i guess ill stop writing and suck it up for another day...like always