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It may be redundant of me to tell you that emotionally I'm not doing too terribly well. Three of my acrylic nails have fallen off, but despite my darndest efforts, I cannot remove the others. My One Act opens tomorrow, and I think it's too early to know what I really feel about that.
Tonight I almost left improv class early because I was feeling a lot of anxiety. But Anand gave a pep talk to everyone [meaning me] and I decided to stay for as long as I could because the energy was great and we were splitting up into our Armando Diaz groups. It was in this Armando Diaz that I had the most amazing acting moment. One of the scenes started vaguely with four people on stage, two people doing one thing, the others doing something different. Pretty typical. Even so, before I knew it, I had established a relationship with this guy Mark(y), and we were having a genuine argument. It was spun from a comedic 'I act gay because you're such a butch' sort of thing, but it turned into such a real moment. My face was turning red from yelling, and I was amazed that he was yelling back. The dialogue flowed so truthfully, like I was really this other woman, discussing a relationship. Then he got on his knees and proposed to me. And I was speechless. He took my hand and said the most beautiful things to me, and when he rose to his feet, we flowed into this half-way kiss that was half of our heads saying that we shouldn't be kissing, and the other half being in the moment. And it was the most gorgeous moment, I felt like I truly fell in love. And while it was awkward around that actor afterwards, I am still elated, hours afterwards, because it is the best piece of improvisational work I've done other than my one-on-one with Anand last semester. I am just so happy, like walking on clouds -- because I was really that person in that real moment and it was so beautiful.
Tonight I almost left improv class early because I was feeling a lot of anxiety. But Anand gave a pep talk to everyone [meaning me] and I decided to stay for as long as I could because the energy was great and we were splitting up into our Armando Diaz groups. It was in this Armando Diaz that I had the most amazing acting moment. One of the scenes started vaguely with four people on stage, two people doing one thing, the others doing something different. Pretty typical. Even so, before I knew it, I had established a relationship with this guy Mark(y), and we were having a genuine argument. It was spun from a comedic 'I act gay because you're such a butch' sort of thing, but it turned into such a real moment. My face was turning red from yelling, and I was amazed that he was yelling back. The dialogue flowed so truthfully, like I was really this other woman, discussing a relationship. Then he got on his knees and proposed to me. And I was speechless. He took my hand and said the most beautiful things to me, and when he rose to his feet, we flowed into this half-way kiss that was half of our heads saying that we shouldn't be kissing, and the other half being in the moment. And it was the most gorgeous moment, I felt like I truly fell in love. And while it was awkward around that actor afterwards, I am still elated, hours afterwards, because it is the best piece of improvisational work I've done other than my one-on-one with Anand last semester. I am just so happy, like walking on clouds -- because I was really that person in that real moment and it was so beautiful.