x i`ll be seeing you.
tonight i won`t sleep, because then i won`t dream. and those dreams are all about you. those tears on my pillow every morning are all about you. the clock blinks in at 2am. and i`m wondering what you`re doing. are you dreaming of me? or has she already filled your head with empty promises? i know she`ll break your heart. she`ll make the earth crash beneath your feet. and i want so badly to tell you, but i want you to ache. i want you to feel lonely and broken, because that`s what you did to me. and even after all of that, i want you to love me again. i`d beg you for another chance if you saw me on my knees. but your eyes don`t ever rest on me anymore. i think you see right through me. i think you ripped my chest wide open because my heart is still in your hands. i guess you played for keeps. i hope she kills you inside. you said you hoped that i`d forget you. and i told you, "only when i forget how to breathe."
tomorrow, surgery.
scared? mm yeah a little.
love,
staci.