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i know you read this. i hope you read this. you made my day.
i can't say i don't know why i've been feeling like this lately, because i do know the multiple reasons that exist. I feel like i'm in a slump. Home is not where it used to be. Home used to be a quick drive and a day trip. Now, Home is 3 hours away and visits when i can get away. I hate 3 hour drives. I hate them. But by the time I get there, it's worth it usually. I hope it's worth it.
I feel like a freshman, staring to go to college... traveling far from home to carry on with my schooling. It sucks. It's because of these feelings that I didn't go far from home. That and other reasons, but avoiding this was a big part. Hell, I cried when I did move so close and went home every weekend... HELLO? I guess this is what growing up is about ?
I've been crying lately... a lot more than usual. I cry in the car, I cry when i think about things, I cry when I'm on the phone, ... it's too much. I miss her, a lot. I wish to myself that I could see her, maybe somehow she would sit next to me in the car when I drive to williamsport every day... talk to me or just keep me company for the drive. It's all in my imagination. I really miss her, I hardly knew her and i really do miss her. it's a wierd feeling.
Every day i don't want to take for granted, i feel like i have. I feel like i'm just floating by in life. you two were the ones i looked up to. And i still do. I hope i'm at least half as happy as you were when you were together. in all my life.
Mike's at his house, at his work. 3 hours away. I haven't seen him for 5 weeks and I do miss him, but i will see him. He feels like he's not a good boyfriend... because i don't laugh like i used to... he's a wonderful boyfriend... what's wrong with me??? I love him so much.
And the other day, you harassed me to call Phil. Happy early birthday. I had to re-save my other "happy birrrthdayyyyy...earrrrlyyyyy" voicemail seconds before i listened to yours. that was wierd. But i called you back. So many ppl ask about you. And i say I haven't talked much to you. But I called you back and we talked. That made my day. I laughed so hard, as if it was my first laugh ever. it felt good. you made my day.
thanks.
i can't say i don't know why i've been feeling like this lately, because i do know the multiple reasons that exist. I feel like i'm in a slump. Home is not where it used to be. Home used to be a quick drive and a day trip. Now, Home is 3 hours away and visits when i can get away. I hate 3 hour drives. I hate them. But by the time I get there, it's worth it usually. I hope it's worth it.
I feel like a freshman, staring to go to college... traveling far from home to carry on with my schooling. It sucks. It's because of these feelings that I didn't go far from home. That and other reasons, but avoiding this was a big part. Hell, I cried when I did move so close and went home every weekend... HELLO? I guess this is what growing up is about ?
I've been crying lately... a lot more than usual. I cry in the car, I cry when i think about things, I cry when I'm on the phone, ... it's too much. I miss her, a lot. I wish to myself that I could see her, maybe somehow she would sit next to me in the car when I drive to williamsport every day... talk to me or just keep me company for the drive. It's all in my imagination. I really miss her, I hardly knew her and i really do miss her. it's a wierd feeling.
Every day i don't want to take for granted, i feel like i have. I feel like i'm just floating by in life. you two were the ones i looked up to. And i still do. I hope i'm at least half as happy as you were when you were together. in all my life.
Mike's at his house, at his work. 3 hours away. I haven't seen him for 5 weeks and I do miss him, but i will see him. He feels like he's not a good boyfriend... because i don't laugh like i used to... he's a wonderful boyfriend... what's wrong with me??? I love him so much.
And the other day, you harassed me to call Phil. Happy early birthday. I had to re-save my other "happy birrrthdayyyyy...earrrrlyyyyy" voicemail seconds before i listened to yours. that was wierd. But i called you back. So many ppl ask about you. And i say I haven't talked much to you. But I called you back and we talked. That made my day. I laughed so hard, as if it was my first laugh ever. it felt good. you made my day.
thanks.