Spring Break
I'm incredibly tired because my body refuses to let me sleep past what 9:30 in the morning. Cool, way cool.
So I was planning to do a lot over break and of course it's friday night and I haven't done half of it. Typical. I suck. I just can't bring myself to pick up the Bible and read it anymore, I have no enthusiasm for that class anymore. I've sent in a bunch of internship applications but not the two I really want because I'm still waiting for EJ's rec letter. She's almost worse than Kiki! But I love her so no worries. BUT EXCITING! I got an email from one of the companies I applied to asking if I would be available next week for an interview! :) I know I'm prematurely excited but still! :) It's a smaller company...Davenport Theatrical Enterprises....who are currently responsible for Altar Boyz, Awesome 80s Prom and My First Time off-Broadway and also the creater of BroadwaySpace which is fantastic - you should all join! I like that's it's small because I feel like I would learn whatever I wanted to with a small company (seriously they have about four staff members). They also all appear pretty young, pretty fresh from college. Could be fun?! I just odn't know how I'm paying for it still. Whatever, I worry about that way too much. So I'm still sending in an application for an audition spot for Music Theatre of Wichita. Also I'm still applying to Disney Theatrical, Williamstown Festival?, Roundabout, and MTC for sure. Perhaps more.
I've been a bit of a lazy butt over break but I did make two trips (Western and State) both equally fun. State may have been a little more fun.
Sad news, Rori died. I'm scared. I'm not sure if she is getting fixed or not. If I had it my way she would be getting fixed but it depends on what is wrong with her. If the repairs are too expensive then my parents will just put her down since she is 16 years old or so. SAD! It happened yesterday when I was driving from work to my doctor. She just started slowing to a stop right in front of Pioneer Middle School. Thankfully I was able to pull over and out of the road. My dad came and put gas in her tank and then we put oil in her but she still wouldn't start. We had to leaver her there and have her towed. I haven't seen him since to know what will become of her :(.
Happy news, THE LITTLE MERMAID CAST RECORDING came out on Tuesday. I'M OBSESSED! Sooo good. I stopped at Borders before driving to Western and had to ask the guy working the music section if they had it. I felt like such a dorkface. I was wondering around and he stopped me and asked if I need help. I explained that I may be mistaken but I had thought that the LMOBC recording was coming out that day. He said yes he'd seen them in the back, give him a minute and he'd go get it. He came back with a single cd for me. I giggled and apologized for being a dork. I listened to it all the way there and about once a day since. Favorite tracks: Positoovity, If Only, One Step Closer, Beyond My Wildest Dreams.... You should all listen.
Let's see, what else? Okay so I still need to watch the newest Star Wars triology but there aren't any more copies at the library here :(. Also have to finish The Divorce, my Bible readings, memorizing my two scenes for Monty, read Ubu Roi. Mmmhhmmm....
I've noticed something very sad: I've stopped daydreaming. I don't know what happened but I don't day dream nearly as much as I used to. Perhaps it's because I don't know what I want anymore and there are so many options and possibilities and pressing issues and worries and self-depricating voices. I can't wait until the day that I day dream clearly again. There used to be a time when I knew exactly what I wanted from life and now I don't but it'll happen again one day. One day I'll know the boy that I'll want, the job I want, the lifestyle I want, the place I want, the everything I want. But now, I don't know. I do know that I want to go out more often than I do...i've become too much of a loner lately. It's weird because I spend a lot of time online researching what I want to do....in terms of internships this summer and musicals but then I still don't day dream because I don't know what I really want and most of the stuff that I'm looking at is not what I really want to do but since I can't do what I really want to do it's a replacement type deal. And I'm afraid of something Ralph said in lecture: You can not be what you can not imagine. I can't imagine life outside of school rightnow....does that mean I'll be a perpetual student/teacher one day? Does that mean I can not be a performer because I don't really understand how that kind of life works? WHAT DOES IT MEAN!
Okay I"m gonna go talk to mommy because I feel like I haven't seen her in a while. (maybe she has news on Rori)