Not Moving!!!
alright well.... it all started out.. me not moving. then theres the idea of giong to New Mexico.. but at the time they said it was MY choice.. k... i guess its not now... my dad is going to find out if they want him to go iether Monday or Tuesday.. i am freaking out.. i dont want to go.. i am so much here in holt and i dont want to leave it... heres my list
1. i might be able to get into the Cosmetology Program at the Career Center next year.. i made the first cut without even turning in my papers... now they are picking 2-3 out of the 7 that are left.. it started out with 20...
2. i have all my sports set... Tennis Tennis Tennis.. thats alll ive worried about for soooo long but no... now id have to play at stupid New Mexico
3. nick.. i finally stay somewhere long enough to be able to feel Love.. a feeling ive never felt before... i am so happy with nick (even though we fight-its not like that) we've been together for about a year now and thats all gonna have to stop.. long distance bullshit WONT work..i love him...
4. friends.. i thought i wouldnt be worried about that because for the longest time ive felt as if i had no more friends anymore.. but when i found out i could move i started to notice things i never realized before.. there are people who care about me.. ive just been so busy getting a good relationship with nick and sports. that i really havent had time to hang out with them anymore...
5. liscence.. i have NO clue what the driving age is down there.. and if i have to wait til im 17 (like i would if we were to move back to CT) id be PISSED!!!!
6.it be starting at a NEW school my JUNIOR year... nobody wants that.. its not elementary where you have one class so you know everyone in a day.. no.. ive had 5 years in holt (the longest ive ever stayed somewhere) and it took that long to make the great friends i ahve now.. i know EVERYONE HERE... plus the school work there.. how do i know they are learning the same things i am??? and my Junior year counts... if i want to go to College i need to have good grades.. and i just have a feeling that when i move my grades will drop either by me feeling depressed or whatever it might be...
I DONT WANT TO GO!!! i told my mom i wasnt going and she even said that she would have my dad go by himself.. but no.. we wouldnt have enough money to hold 2 houses... UGH!!!!i dont know what to do.. i am freaking out... i still havent said anything to nick yet.. i thinki m gonna tell him when we go out to eat tonite... man.. this weekend is gonna BLOW!!!!!
leave me comments PLEASE i need help!!!
1. i might be able to get into the Cosmetology Program at the Career Center next year.. i made the first cut without even turning in my papers... now they are picking 2-3 out of the 7 that are left.. it started out with 20...
2. i have all my sports set... Tennis Tennis Tennis.. thats alll ive worried about for soooo long but no... now id have to play at stupid New Mexico
3. nick.. i finally stay somewhere long enough to be able to feel Love.. a feeling ive never felt before... i am so happy with nick (even though we fight-its not like that) we've been together for about a year now and thats all gonna have to stop.. long distance bullshit WONT work..i love him...
4. friends.. i thought i wouldnt be worried about that because for the longest time ive felt as if i had no more friends anymore.. but when i found out i could move i started to notice things i never realized before.. there are people who care about me.. ive just been so busy getting a good relationship with nick and sports. that i really havent had time to hang out with them anymore...
5. liscence.. i have NO clue what the driving age is down there.. and if i have to wait til im 17 (like i would if we were to move back to CT) id be PISSED!!!!
6.it be starting at a NEW school my JUNIOR year... nobody wants that.. its not elementary where you have one class so you know everyone in a day.. no.. ive had 5 years in holt (the longest ive ever stayed somewhere) and it took that long to make the great friends i ahve now.. i know EVERYONE HERE... plus the school work there.. how do i know they are learning the same things i am??? and my Junior year counts... if i want to go to College i need to have good grades.. and i just have a feeling that when i move my grades will drop either by me feeling depressed or whatever it might be...
I DONT WANT TO GO!!! i told my mom i wasnt going and she even said that she would have my dad go by himself.. but no.. we wouldnt have enough money to hold 2 houses... UGH!!!!i dont know what to do.. i am freaking out... i still havent said anything to nick yet.. i thinki m gonna tell him when we go out to eat tonite... man.. this weekend is gonna BLOW!!!!!
leave me comments PLEASE i need help!!!