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"A Rush Of Blood To The Head"
You said I'm gonna buy this place and burn it down
I'm gonna put it six feet underground
I'm gonna buy this place and watch it fall
Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls
Oh I'm gonna buy this place and start a fire
Stand here until I fill all your hearts desire
Because I'm gonna buy this place and see it burn
And do back the things it did to you in return
Those lyrics are by Coldplay's new song, "A Rush of Blood to the Head" from their new album, "A Rush of Blood to the Head". They express how I feel about a recent event that has occurred. Some find the lyrics depressing, but I find them *expressing* of what and how I feel. I don't know if you can burn down a car, but that's what I associate with the problem. Or rather...that's who I associate the problem with.
Some things are beyond my control. Other things, aren't. This one is in between. It's out of my control because the events have already transpired...but I'm in control because at least I can manage the aftermath and make it not so ugly.
You'll probably never read this, because you don't even know where to start looking. But don't claim yourself Christian before me. Don't claim yourself father before me. I know Christians. I know Christ. I know God. I know how you behave when you are a Christian and you lose sight of it the moment you step out of your holy precious church. You forget who your family is. You forget who the most important people in your life are.
I know father because I have two wonderful father's who would never in a million years treat me or my brothers the way you treat your children. I have a dad who I may only hear from four days out of the year, but never ignores me. And I have a step-dad that loves me and concerns himself over me as if I was his naturally first born. Neither one of my fathers would ever react the way you did. The first time you were acting childish. The second time you crossed the fucking line.
I forgive easily, ask anyone. There's very few things I cannot forgive. But as of today I've found something new that I can't forgive. Today was the saddest day of my life because of the horrible way you acted and the way you hurt others around you. You ungrateful...I can't think of a word for you. I can't think of a word. Perhaps there isn't a word to describe you.
You have no appreciation for the most wonderful beautiful person that you may ever encounter in your entire life. You don't see the kindness, caring and love this person gives out freely to any that asks. And you don't see it. For what you did, I can never forgive you. And any shred of respect I had for you has vaporized faster than water on the surface of the sun.
I don't need high blood pressure so this is where I'll end my entry. You weren't even worth the energy, thought, and time I put into this entry. But I had to vent somewhere.
When we're gone don't even dare come into our lives because I will not let you cause any more pain, hurt or damage than what you have done.
You said I'm gonna buy this place and burn it down
I'm gonna put it six feet underground
I'm gonna buy this place and watch it fall
Stand here beside me baby in the crumbling walls
Oh I'm gonna buy this place and start a fire
Stand here until I fill all your hearts desire
Because I'm gonna buy this place and see it burn
And do back the things it did to you in return
Those lyrics are by Coldplay's new song, "A Rush of Blood to the Head" from their new album, "A Rush of Blood to the Head". They express how I feel about a recent event that has occurred. Some find the lyrics depressing, but I find them *expressing* of what and how I feel. I don't know if you can burn down a car, but that's what I associate with the problem. Or rather...that's who I associate the problem with.
Some things are beyond my control. Other things, aren't. This one is in between. It's out of my control because the events have already transpired...but I'm in control because at least I can manage the aftermath and make it not so ugly.
You'll probably never read this, because you don't even know where to start looking. But don't claim yourself Christian before me. Don't claim yourself father before me. I know Christians. I know Christ. I know God. I know how you behave when you are a Christian and you lose sight of it the moment you step out of your holy precious church. You forget who your family is. You forget who the most important people in your life are.
I know father because I have two wonderful father's who would never in a million years treat me or my brothers the way you treat your children. I have a dad who I may only hear from four days out of the year, but never ignores me. And I have a step-dad that loves me and concerns himself over me as if I was his naturally first born. Neither one of my fathers would ever react the way you did. The first time you were acting childish. The second time you crossed the fucking line.
I forgive easily, ask anyone. There's very few things I cannot forgive. But as of today I've found something new that I can't forgive. Today was the saddest day of my life because of the horrible way you acted and the way you hurt others around you. You ungrateful...I can't think of a word for you. I can't think of a word. Perhaps there isn't a word to describe you.
You have no appreciation for the most wonderful beautiful person that you may ever encounter in your entire life. You don't see the kindness, caring and love this person gives out freely to any that asks. And you don't see it. For what you did, I can never forgive you. And any shred of respect I had for you has vaporized faster than water on the surface of the sun.
I don't need high blood pressure so this is where I'll end my entry. You weren't even worth the energy, thought, and time I put into this entry. But I had to vent somewhere.
When we're gone don't even dare come into our lives because I will not let you cause any more pain, hurt or damage than what you have done.