We almost got it...
4.24.2008
8.22AM
6.52A MSE
Last night, we had a volleyball game at Meralco gym. We know that our opponents is one of the best teams in the bracket and we are just hoping that we will be able to win one set. We almost got it but we still lost it… Sayang… we tried our very best… I almost got my left foot sprained wanting to contribute the very best that I could do for the team however it was not ENOUGH…
As much as I would like to rant about it, I guess there is no use… At least I can control now my temper regarding how I play in case the game is not favorable to us. I dunno if I have to retire from this sport that I have loved playing since my high school days. We still have 2 games to play and hopefully we will be nailed it. It's just sad and frustrating…
It's been months already that I haven't been talking to some of my close buds. I don't know what happened to them. Buti pa and GUAM parang nasa Manila lang ang kausap ko… I guess they are too busy with their personal life. Hands up na ako about it… Pero sometimes, I am still wondering if they really considered me as their friend. For the past months, I've been trying to tell them something important about me about what's going on with me… I guess they will be able to know about it when I am gone… (dead). It may also take them months or years when that happens…
I've been suffering from this disorder that only a few knows about it. I guess that's the reason why people in the office are having a hard time understanding it. I don’t want to broadcast it for the reason of privacy and the more that they will be scared. I am hungering for someone to talk to. Someone to just tap on my back… Someone to tell me that everything is ok. I am having a HARD TIME… My case is very different from others… Mababa ang parental orientation and guidance ko because I was deprived of it to begin with… I don't want to put blame on this on my parents… I understand where they are coming from… Naiintindihan ko naman ang lahat pero sana may nakakaintindi rin sa mga nararamdaman ko…
Hay naku, heto na naman ako umiiyak na naman… Kung kelan ako naging matanda saka naman ako naging iyakin… At kung kelan ako naging matanda, doon pa ako nagkaroon ng issues fitting in…
According to a friend of mine who shared this lines "You don't have to prove anything to anyone. It's not your problem when they reject you, its theirs. Only stuck up stuck up idiots would require you to please them." I don’t know if this makes sense…
Ginagawa ko naman ang magkaroon ng positive outlook kahit puro pasakit na ang ginagawa sa akin. I even enrolled sa mga classes on how to develop it… How pathetic di ba… pati confidence pinagaaralan ko na rin… Grabe talaga ang napinsala nung isa sa buhay ko… Akala mo kung sino kang Diyos… Ayan na naman may halong pagkasuklam…
Hanggang blog na lng muna ang aking pagpapahayag ng aking mga hinaing… Hanggang dito na muna…
8.22AM
6.52A MSE
Last night, we had a volleyball game at Meralco gym. We know that our opponents is one of the best teams in the bracket and we are just hoping that we will be able to win one set. We almost got it but we still lost it… Sayang… we tried our very best… I almost got my left foot sprained wanting to contribute the very best that I could do for the team however it was not ENOUGH…
As much as I would like to rant about it, I guess there is no use… At least I can control now my temper regarding how I play in case the game is not favorable to us. I dunno if I have to retire from this sport that I have loved playing since my high school days. We still have 2 games to play and hopefully we will be nailed it. It's just sad and frustrating…
It's been months already that I haven't been talking to some of my close buds. I don't know what happened to them. Buti pa and GUAM parang nasa Manila lang ang kausap ko… I guess they are too busy with their personal life. Hands up na ako about it… Pero sometimes, I am still wondering if they really considered me as their friend. For the past months, I've been trying to tell them something important about me about what's going on with me… I guess they will be able to know about it when I am gone… (dead). It may also take them months or years when that happens…
I've been suffering from this disorder that only a few knows about it. I guess that's the reason why people in the office are having a hard time understanding it. I don’t want to broadcast it for the reason of privacy and the more that they will be scared. I am hungering for someone to talk to. Someone to just tap on my back… Someone to tell me that everything is ok. I am having a HARD TIME… My case is very different from others… Mababa ang parental orientation and guidance ko because I was deprived of it to begin with… I don't want to put blame on this on my parents… I understand where they are coming from… Naiintindihan ko naman ang lahat pero sana may nakakaintindi rin sa mga nararamdaman ko…
Hay naku, heto na naman ako umiiyak na naman… Kung kelan ako naging matanda saka naman ako naging iyakin… At kung kelan ako naging matanda, doon pa ako nagkaroon ng issues fitting in…
According to a friend of mine who shared this lines "You don't have to prove anything to anyone. It's not your problem when they reject you, its theirs. Only stuck up stuck up idiots would require you to please them." I don’t know if this makes sense…
Ginagawa ko naman ang magkaroon ng positive outlook kahit puro pasakit na ang ginagawa sa akin. I even enrolled sa mga classes on how to develop it… How pathetic di ba… pati confidence pinagaaralan ko na rin… Grabe talaga ang napinsala nung isa sa buhay ko… Akala mo kung sino kang Diyos… Ayan na naman may halong pagkasuklam…
Hanggang blog na lng muna ang aking pagpapahayag ng aking mga hinaing… Hanggang dito na muna…