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wow its been a while........
alot has happened, so much that the fact that i have so much to write just makes me not write it at all.......
to sum it all up ... ive decide just not to speak to my father about thing that are not on a "need to know basis". Not because im mad but because im tired about the way he treats me and my mom. those painful words that cut like a blade. I chose not to talk to him out of punishment. not so much for him but for me............ words cant even descride how i feel ( empty, alone, rigid, HURT) just to name a few. But on top of all this im super happy with my social life..... this summer when i wasnt in my house,i can truly say i have laughed harder then ever!!
IF THERES ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED THIS SUMMER, ITS WHO I AM AND HOW I WANT TO BE PERCIEVED... AND THE FRIENDS THAT I THOUGHT WERE GOING TO BE WITH ME THROUGH THESE HARD TIMES HAVENT EVEN SHOWN THERE FACE. BUT EVEN WITH ALL THIS, I HAVE LEARNED THAT AM THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN GET MYSELF THROUGH EVERYTHING, ALL THESES HARDSHIPS...IT JUST ME AND GOD!!! AND IM NOT MAD, IM NOT MAD AT MY "FRIENDS" OR FAMILY OR EVEN MY FATHER FOR BEING THE WAY THEY ARE. IT ALL HAS HELPED ME FIND MYSELF.............BUT IF THERE IS ONE THING I ASK ITS "WHY???"
"CRY INSIDE BUT OUTSIDE LOOKING FIERCE"
to end on a good note,, summer school has been great!! i laugh so much, it great!!! soccer even better,saturday games are awesome!!! and to make myself even happier im joining a gym!!! im going tomorrow to pay the fee!!!
cant wait!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL
alot has happened, so much that the fact that i have so much to write just makes me not write it at all.......
to sum it all up ... ive decide just not to speak to my father about thing that are not on a "need to know basis". Not because im mad but because im tired about the way he treats me and my mom. those painful words that cut like a blade. I chose not to talk to him out of punishment. not so much for him but for me............ words cant even descride how i feel ( empty, alone, rigid, HURT) just to name a few. But on top of all this im super happy with my social life..... this summer when i wasnt in my house,i can truly say i have laughed harder then ever!!
IF THERES ONE THING I HAVE LEARNED THIS SUMMER, ITS WHO I AM AND HOW I WANT TO BE PERCIEVED... AND THE FRIENDS THAT I THOUGHT WERE GOING TO BE WITH ME THROUGH THESE HARD TIMES HAVENT EVEN SHOWN THERE FACE. BUT EVEN WITH ALL THIS, I HAVE LEARNED THAT AM THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN GET MYSELF THROUGH EVERYTHING, ALL THESES HARDSHIPS...IT JUST ME AND GOD!!! AND IM NOT MAD, IM NOT MAD AT MY "FRIENDS" OR FAMILY OR EVEN MY FATHER FOR BEING THE WAY THEY ARE. IT ALL HAS HELPED ME FIND MYSELF.............BUT IF THERE IS ONE THING I ASK ITS "WHY???"
"CRY INSIDE BUT OUTSIDE LOOKING FIERCE"
to end on a good note,, summer school has been great!! i laugh so much, it great!!! soccer even better,saturday games are awesome!!! and to make myself even happier im joining a gym!!! im going tomorrow to pay the fee!!!
cant wait!!!!
I LOVE YOU ALL