a million little pieces
20 years of my life and I've never had such a big fight with my father until 5 minutes ago. He's always been a man with very few words, but whenever he does say something, he's either very wise or just plain unreasonable. We hardly talk, simply because I understand my personal abrasive manner and I'm usually cautious, just in case I ever agitated his feelings. I never thought that such a small discussion would eventually cause such an uproar in this small house at this hour of the night. I even tried explaining myself without raising my voice, which is something that hardly happens when I quarrel with my mum. Truth is, I had no idea why or how he thought I was trying to be rude, so I just stood there all confused. I admit that I'm an awkward turtle when handling a conversation with my dad, but I swear I didn't answer him in such a way that would've triggered his anger. It went on with him using all sort of hurtful words that I wished he never used. The yelling didn't last very long, but it was the most painful 5 minutes. It stings the most when I was going to tell him that I have reasons for not getting a job right now, and that I still have plans to continue studying, but he shot back with "I know what you're thinking, but it's not going to happen."
I'm so lost, crushed and disappointed and I can't stop crying.
I'm so lost, crushed and disappointed and I can't stop crying.