these vagabond shoes are longing to stray

[jtthomas]

three days after hugh broke up with me, i decided i needed to leave the east coast. not just boston, but the whole entire east coast. anything on that side of the country was too close for me. and there was no way i could stay in that city. everything reminded me of him. my apartment where we'd shared so many amazing days and nights, the cafe on the corner of my street where he'd first told me of his feelings for me, the market a couple blocks down where we had started a food fight and then were asked not-so-kindly by the manager to leave. even specific streets reminded me of him for one reason or another. it was like i was living underwater; i couldn't breathe when i left my apartment because the surroundings held so many memories. hell, i guess i couldn't even breathe in my apartment; it was like my lungs were constantly full of water. it was my fault for allowing something so brief to affect me so deeply. we were only together for five months. but, in those five months, we spent every single day together, and when you're with someone so consistently for that amount of time, you're bound to get very close. so i knew i needed to be away from there and those memories. i'd just recently found out that my mother's health wasn't doing so well, so i moved back here, to la, to be around my mom. and to be away from him. and i haven't been back since.

if you're one of the people that i talk to regularly, you'll know that i've been considering taking a trip. i've been feeling suffocated here, and have become a little bored with my surroundings, so i've been looking places up online, trying to figure out where i wanted to go. last night, keri and i decided that it'd be fun for me to go visit her for a little while. and she's in new york. so this'll be my first time back on the east coast in two years. it should be fine and i'm sure keri will keep me busy, what with her hugs, bsb/aj lovin', and gangsta ways, but maybe, just in case, luck should be wished my way.