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i woke up this morning from a dream about my late grandmother. she was in my bedroom, looking down at me as i was sleeping, and her face was contorted with pain, almost. she reached down and touched my shoulder, which woke up me up in the dream, and instead of being frightened like i would probably normally be, i looked up at her in awe, wondering why she was there. but then i realized she was crying. so i frowned and i asked what was wrong, and she said that she lost her way. that she was lost. and no matter what i said to her, she just kept crying. i hate seeing people cry, let alone someone i love. but then i woke up. and i don't know if you've ever had the kind of dream that just leaves you icy inside, but that's how i felt. i felt icy and alone. i honestly haven't thought about my grandmother in a while, because it took me a long time to get over her death. it was just easier to not think about her than it was to constantly be in pain over the loss. it's strange to me, then, that i would dream about her randomly and she'd tell me she's lost. i'm not one to look at dreams for signs, but i wonder if it's supposed to mean something. i still feel icy.