The confused mind of a mild-dilinquent
Have you ever known what the right thing to do was in a given situation, but you just couldn't do it. Why is that. Why can't people just get over the fear that they have and just do it. Personaly, I dont think it's fear as in people are just afraid to do what's right, but it's people are afraid of the shame that would come from doing what is right when others would not. I personally have that dilema before me and I hate it. It's consuming me. Where I am is not where I need to be and where I'm going is not where I need to be going. Part of me wants to be/go there, but I know better. Then what will happen when and if I stop those things. Who will say what about me behind my back. I could be stubborn and say well I dont give shit, but I do care about the people that I associate with and I also care what they think. I seriously feel like this period of my life is coimng to an end but I dont necessarliy know how that's going to happen. Will I make the monumental decision of self-denial and come full circle to where I should have been all along, or will circumstances escalade to the point where I have no alternative. hmmmm....We'll see