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So the end of summer is finally approaching and school starts back on Monday. I have my first 8am class ever this semester and I'm completely not looking forward to it. That's what you get when you don't sign up for classes until July. To be honest I didn't know if I was going to go back or not. My life has been so up and down that past couple months that I didn't know if I was going to be able to handle school. I do know that I am in a completely different mindset than spring semester. During the spring I was just there at school. I showed up and got my grades. Now I am hoping school will be somewhat of a distraction. It's going to be different not being on medicine and trying to focus which I have found out so far this summer FUCKING BLOWS. My mind does not slow down. Every minute of every day I've got emotions running through my head. Many of them have to do with the past that I can't change but I still regret. I've got so many questions and nobody to give me the answers. It has been 6 months for her and 4 for me and I am nowhere close to letting go. I try and go out wit other people but nothing ever works. It looks as if it is going to be a long and lonely fall and winter. Great.