Awful Beautiful Life...
I wrote something short and to the point on my myspace blog, so I'm going to skip that. So at this point, I just want to say that like Marie, this LiveJournal is mostly for me even though I know other people can read and give me feedback. Today was my last counseling session, and I felt really good about that. Y'all can make fun of me all you want, but I do have an anxiety disorder. Blame Lisa, and her father, I know I do. I feel really good about things right now. I'm much more able to deal with the fact that my dad is dead. For those of you that know me, you knew when my dad was alive and he was sick I did the things I did because my dad couldn't. I got so angry when he died I lost that part of me. But I'm able to do things because Dad did again, and that makes me feel so much better. I almost wish I'd hyphenated my name, haha. Not really, I just like saying I'm Jamie Tobias, Gary Tobias' daughter. But anyway, that piece of life is going well.
Then there's my weight. I've started Weight Watchers. I don't even care that some asshole, probably my ridiculously retarded sister or one of the people I went to high school with are going to say something about it. I'm doing this for myself. I want to feel better. I don't care what people think, or at least I try not to. Jason is not on weight watcher's but he has also lost some weight this week and I am very proud of him. So that's that.
I already went over the confusion about school and work in my myspace, so I won't even go there. I just want to say to Marie- sometimes I need my friends and my family to tell me that things are okay. I'm so set in my ways and my ideas sometimes that I can fail to see that if I change my mind that's okay. So thank you very much for being that friend. Jason tells me a lot, but he's my husband and sometimes I am just not able to listen to him like I can a friend.
So here's what we did. Yesterday I was like 20 minutes late getting out of work because Chaeri and I had to empty her huge water table. Then I met Jason at the PXtra for a few minutes, and then we went to Chaeri's to see Sam Adams and Appollo. They are getting so big already! Jason played with Nismo too, because he loves that dog so much, lol. We were trying to leave when we realized we'd left Jason's car at the PX. We went back to get it and tried to get a salad at this place inside the PX but it was 8 and they close at 7. They shouldn't be allowed to do that, lol. So then we went to Panera Bread, which was really nice. I had to get some things at Target after that. We walked from Panera, like a 10 minute walk when you're wearing clunky flip flops, and we had to hurry back because it was about to rain. I did some homework and Jason and I talked before bed. All in all it was a nice night. Time for some homework before work.
Then there's my weight. I've started Weight Watchers. I don't even care that some asshole, probably my ridiculously retarded sister or one of the people I went to high school with are going to say something about it. I'm doing this for myself. I want to feel better. I don't care what people think, or at least I try not to. Jason is not on weight watcher's but he has also lost some weight this week and I am very proud of him. So that's that.
I already went over the confusion about school and work in my myspace, so I won't even go there. I just want to say to Marie- sometimes I need my friends and my family to tell me that things are okay. I'm so set in my ways and my ideas sometimes that I can fail to see that if I change my mind that's okay. So thank you very much for being that friend. Jason tells me a lot, but he's my husband and sometimes I am just not able to listen to him like I can a friend.
So here's what we did. Yesterday I was like 20 minutes late getting out of work because Chaeri and I had to empty her huge water table. Then I met Jason at the PXtra for a few minutes, and then we went to Chaeri's to see Sam Adams and Appollo. They are getting so big already! Jason played with Nismo too, because he loves that dog so much, lol. We were trying to leave when we realized we'd left Jason's car at the PX. We went back to get it and tried to get a salad at this place inside the PX but it was 8 and they close at 7. They shouldn't be allowed to do that, lol. So then we went to Panera Bread, which was really nice. I had to get some things at Target after that. We walked from Panera, like a 10 minute walk when you're wearing clunky flip flops, and we had to hurry back because it was about to rain. I did some homework and Jason and I talked before bed. All in all it was a nice night. Time for some homework before work.