Am I all cried out?
UGHHHHHHH I'm confused.
When you hear lots of different opinions, suggestions and "words of wisdom and advice"...your mind starts to get muddled.
So I choose to follow my gut. And my gut is telling me (at the moment) that I still love Jeff and I want to talk to him about what's going on and really get to the "bottom of all this" rather than jumping the gun. I don't want to give up just yet...especially since I feel so strongly about him...about us...and about our future. Amber said something that I told my friend earlier in the day (before Amber told me)..."If you believe that Jeff is the one and you really do love him...then you'll fight for it even at the risk of totally putting yourself out there. You have to fight for it if he means that much to you."
So I'm going to talk to him and like I said, I hope we'll be able to really talk everything through and see what we can come up with together if that's even the decision we'll end up agreeing on. All I know is that I don't want this happening EVERY SINGLE YEAR, I don't want him to bottle everything up and then boom spring all these excuses at me and totally catch me off guard, I want a more open line of communication, I want us to come up with a plan on how we can have our personal days where we can just do our thing for our mental sanity or just to even catch up on errands, I want us to come up with a plan where we can be more supportive of one another on an equal level where we both feel like we're helping each other and in turn ourselves towards achieving our personal goals, I want us to be able to talk more openly and realistically about where we want this to go and I want us to come up with a more structured plan as far as our finances and our health lifestyle. That's a good start right? I mean these are basically the issues that he brought up...
I'm just afraid...what if he doesn't take the talk very well and just decides in this entire week of not speaking or seeing each other that he wants to really BREAK UP break up...I'm just worried...
But I can't worry about things I have no control over...I'll just have to see...
When you hear lots of different opinions, suggestions and "words of wisdom and advice"...your mind starts to get muddled.
So I choose to follow my gut. And my gut is telling me (at the moment) that I still love Jeff and I want to talk to him about what's going on and really get to the "bottom of all this" rather than jumping the gun. I don't want to give up just yet...especially since I feel so strongly about him...about us...and about our future. Amber said something that I told my friend earlier in the day (before Amber told me)..."If you believe that Jeff is the one and you really do love him...then you'll fight for it even at the risk of totally putting yourself out there. You have to fight for it if he means that much to you."
So I'm going to talk to him and like I said, I hope we'll be able to really talk everything through and see what we can come up with together if that's even the decision we'll end up agreeing on. All I know is that I don't want this happening EVERY SINGLE YEAR, I don't want him to bottle everything up and then boom spring all these excuses at me and totally catch me off guard, I want a more open line of communication, I want us to come up with a plan on how we can have our personal days where we can just do our thing for our mental sanity or just to even catch up on errands, I want us to come up with a plan where we can be more supportive of one another on an equal level where we both feel like we're helping each other and in turn ourselves towards achieving our personal goals, I want us to be able to talk more openly and realistically about where we want this to go and I want us to come up with a more structured plan as far as our finances and our health lifestyle. That's a good start right? I mean these are basically the issues that he brought up...
I'm just afraid...what if he doesn't take the talk very well and just decides in this entire week of not speaking or seeing each other that he wants to really BREAK UP break up...I'm just worried...
But I can't worry about things I have no control over...I'll just have to see...