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so this is the eighth time that i haven't been able to sleep. it is now 4 in the morning and i have a very intense painting class in a bout 5 hours. so that should be fun! i don't know why i can't seem to fall asleep anymore. i'd like to believe that i'd develop an alter ego who makes soap and fights random men in bars. but, i doubt it.
this thing with nick is kinda weird. as i keep thinking about it, i erally am not attarcted to him. i mean he does know about good movies and he pays ssbm. and he isn't an asshole. but i don't know. i really don't want anyone to meet him and i kinda don't want to see him. maybe we'll see the fountain when it comes out. whatever. that whole situation is just too awkward.
this weekend sucked. i was so lonely in my room. and i am really getting frustrated with alyssa, she keeps coming into my room to watch tv, but she is just too boring, and has nothing interesting to say and has no hobbies or interests and doesn't read the news or watch movies or like art or read books or watch tv. so we have very little in common other than she lives down the hall from me. maybe its asking too much to have a real connection with someone. i guess i thought that id come to university and i'd find a multitude of people who are cultured, intelligent and fun. i'm just dissapointed. and i need to start painting my subway pieces again. i want to apply for this gallery exhibit in the student center so the deadline is in december but i really won't have enough time to finish an larger pieces.
this thing with nick is kinda weird. as i keep thinking about it, i erally am not attarcted to him. i mean he does know about good movies and he pays ssbm. and he isn't an asshole. but i don't know. i really don't want anyone to meet him and i kinda don't want to see him. maybe we'll see the fountain when it comes out. whatever. that whole situation is just too awkward.
this weekend sucked. i was so lonely in my room. and i am really getting frustrated with alyssa, she keeps coming into my room to watch tv, but she is just too boring, and has nothing interesting to say and has no hobbies or interests and doesn't read the news or watch movies or like art or read books or watch tv. so we have very little in common other than she lives down the hall from me. maybe its asking too much to have a real connection with someone. i guess i thought that id come to university and i'd find a multitude of people who are cultured, intelligent and fun. i'm just dissapointed. and i need to start painting my subway pieces again. i want to apply for this gallery exhibit in the student center so the deadline is in december but i really won't have enough time to finish an larger pieces.