who cares n e more no1 ever reads these n e way

[jstew726]

im feeling really depressed right now. i recently got dumped. AGAIN. i gave up everything to b with her. alienated my own family to b with her. n she threw me away lk y days trash. i have no friends to speak of. no1 wants to b w me or around me. i have nothing left here n e more. i just SI'd for the first time in months. slit my arm wide open, and right now i am enjoying the sight of my own blood running down my arm. i missed it. i missed the feeling of a cold piece of steel running against my skin. i am now feeling slightly better. but i think thats just due to the endorphines kicking in to dull the pain from the nerves i just hit. but o well. ill take almost n e thing over the pain of having to live alone. completely alone. no1 cares about me around here and it is really hard. so who would miss me if i just died right now? who would even notice if i just ceased to live? who would come to my funeral? my family my friends? family isnt that happy w me n e more, and what friends do i have????? i hate asking this.

this blows. lk a whole lot.

idk.

feel free to comment. i doubt ill b online to check it n e more. argue amongst urselves, fight and feel free to blame me for everything in ur miserable lives. all i do is take the blame and give out kind words, but where were u when i needed some kindness, or trust, or even love? thats right nowhere. nowhere at all.