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[jstephany07]

I've screwed up so much...these things are my fault. I need to stop being so fucking selfish. I don't want to lose you because of it. I understand you...I really do!!! And now it is my time to show it. I want you to not give up on our love though because I will always love you and be here for you. I know what I want...and its you. And about school...I want to finish out. I want to get a 4.0 this quarter. Thats my goal, so i'm working my but off!!! I want to get mky grades up to get into minnesota. I want to do something with my life...Maybe medicine, but definately music too. I want to be able to have a report card everyone is proud of...including me. I will finish and get into Minnesota. I won't give up on that goal. With a 4.0 this quarter it should bring my GPA up to about 3.4 or something like that. So if I get a 4.0 or better every quarter...I'll have around a 4.0 by the end of the year. This is my goal...and I am going to do it. No playing around. I understand what I have to do and what I want...and that is you and a future with you that is goo...including a good job and nice house and so on. I want to be able to make you proud. Im tired of making you hurt. I am an asshole. I can see it now. I've been so inconsiderate lately. But I see now...and to change we must see what needs to be changed first so at least I've got that. I know what has to be done...and Im gonna do it. I'll show you. I'll make you proud. I love you and I will never stop!!!

I love you my brown eyed baby girl!!!
Josh(Mccartney)