This could be the very minute I'm aware I'm alive

[jstbelieveinme]

We only have until the summer until you leave for college. That leaves us five months to make the most out of our friendship, wherever it may go. I feel that I may lose you once you leave and I don't know what I'm going to do. It scares me out of my mind and I start crying at the thought of it. You have had such a big impact on my life, you really have no idea. I wish we could be closer. I wish things didn't have to change, that we can live in any moment we want to forever. I'm going to miss you.

And truthfully, I'm writing this to "you", but I don't know exactly who this is aimed at.