Dec 18, 2005 21:23
Back in 1876 an ol' boy named Bell
Invented a contraption that we know so well
By the 1950's they were in everybody's home
That crazy little thing they call the telephone
Now there's one on every corner, in the back of every bar
You can get one in your briefcase, on a plane or in your car
So tell me why, haven't I, heard from you
Tell me why, haven't I heard from you
Darlin', honey, what is your excuse
Why haven't I heard from you?
so im in one of these moods lately. i know whats causing it. i know that its happening. im breing a real dick to those people that i do talk to, and that talk to me. im kinda bummed out about it, but i havent fixed it yet. i know what will fix it, but i dont know why i should try. i dont know why I always have to initiate everything. why should i be the one? why? there is no answer is there. its always me. my fault for some reason. doesent matter what it is. it can be really really small, or big. either way tho, its mostly me. but whatever. im trying to move on. its not really working, but im trying. whatever. its xmas im trying to be happy. it works when i dont think about it, but then i think about it and it sucks. anyway tho. i only know of one person who reads this for sure, so i dont know if my message will get out to those who it is directed towards, and i think you probably know who you are, then whatever. im going to go watch national lampoons xmas vacation. bye.