memories
i was looking back over the past 6 months worth of LJ posts ive had. i started remembering so many things. many times when i was mad, many when i was happy. i started to remember how things used to be and now i look at how they are now. things suck compared to what they were over the end of last year/beginning of summer-bout halfway thru the summer. now they just suck. i have like 3 entries about how good of friend aj is. i basically feel the complete opposite right now. im not exactly sure why that is. i mean i have a slight feeling, but no solid idea. it sucks.
i read some entries about alyssa. yes alyssa, you do have pockets, and yes, you are retarded. we all know. i still love you tho. i read an entry i posted after we had that one really good talk that one night at the park. remember what im talking about? thanks for bein such a great friend and always being there for me to make fun of!
i read some stuff about the cold shoulder. why does it seem like the exact same thing is happening now. i mean, i dont think its quite so bad as it was, but its still there. that still bugs me.
i read some memories from sophomore year too. those memories still make me happy and sad. times when i wasnt myself. times when i was myself. having people there for me to turn to when i needed to. not having people there. ive realized everything has made a big ol circle. sure the circumstances are different, but they are still essentially the same. i dont know. im just doing a lot of thinking lately. a lot of things need to change, or stuff is just going to suck all year long. i really dont know what to do tho. blah.
if you ever get bored, or just feel like remembering the past year, go back and read your entries. its amazing the feelings it stirs up. oh and i realized i stopped the whole "thanks for reading" thing that i started so long ago. sooooooo, in closing. dont let shit get bad, cuz it will just keep getting worse. thanks for reading.
ps. if you want to, read my memories page. those are the posts im talking about the most. peace out.
i read some entries about alyssa. yes alyssa, you do have pockets, and yes, you are retarded. we all know. i still love you tho. i read an entry i posted after we had that one really good talk that one night at the park. remember what im talking about? thanks for bein such a great friend and always being there for me to make fun of!
i read some stuff about the cold shoulder. why does it seem like the exact same thing is happening now. i mean, i dont think its quite so bad as it was, but its still there. that still bugs me.
i read some memories from sophomore year too. those memories still make me happy and sad. times when i wasnt myself. times when i was myself. having people there for me to turn to when i needed to. not having people there. ive realized everything has made a big ol circle. sure the circumstances are different, but they are still essentially the same. i dont know. im just doing a lot of thinking lately. a lot of things need to change, or stuff is just going to suck all year long. i really dont know what to do tho. blah.
if you ever get bored, or just feel like remembering the past year, go back and read your entries. its amazing the feelings it stirs up. oh and i realized i stopped the whole "thanks for reading" thing that i started so long ago. sooooooo, in closing. dont let shit get bad, cuz it will just keep getting worse. thanks for reading.
ps. if you want to, read my memories page. those are the posts im talking about the most. peace out.