long week(s)
I'm just tired. Just plain tired.
Lately I've been feeling like I'm doing everything in my power to please everyone.
I'm tired of juggling everything right now.
Hopefully everything in life with work and everything else will work itself out. Otherwise, if you're just going to be someone who likes to touch base every now and then and be mad at me for the fact that I can't just be there for you all the time, then I'm sorry. I'm drained. I've proven to myself and others that I can be a good friend and a good person to those I love, and if you can't trust that, then I just don't know what else to do. Juggling work, trying to even take care of my own body has been the most difficult thing for me right now. I've gained so much weight from not being able to just care for myself because I've been so preoccupied. For the first time in a very long time, I was able to go to the gym and really feel good about myself. Today. I was even moved to buy healthy foods to get me in the right direction. Every single bad habit i've tried to break since last year has come right back, along with nail biting when I'm nervous, to eating because I wasn't happy.
Enough. Maybe I just need to take a step back and just take a break from everything for awhile. While many of you have been understanding of what I've been dealing with, I appreciate your positive energy, and they know who they are. A little bit of understanding can really go a long way with me.
This isn't meant towards anyone in particular. I'm just going to send this out into that void called internet blogging and leave this alone for now. I'm tired, physically, mentally and emotionally. Goodnight.
Lately I've been feeling like I'm doing everything in my power to please everyone.
I'm tired of juggling everything right now.
Hopefully everything in life with work and everything else will work itself out. Otherwise, if you're just going to be someone who likes to touch base every now and then and be mad at me for the fact that I can't just be there for you all the time, then I'm sorry. I'm drained. I've proven to myself and others that I can be a good friend and a good person to those I love, and if you can't trust that, then I just don't know what else to do. Juggling work, trying to even take care of my own body has been the most difficult thing for me right now. I've gained so much weight from not being able to just care for myself because I've been so preoccupied. For the first time in a very long time, I was able to go to the gym and really feel good about myself. Today. I was even moved to buy healthy foods to get me in the right direction. Every single bad habit i've tried to break since last year has come right back, along with nail biting when I'm nervous, to eating because I wasn't happy.
Enough. Maybe I just need to take a step back and just take a break from everything for awhile. While many of you have been understanding of what I've been dealing with, I appreciate your positive energy, and they know who they are. A little bit of understanding can really go a long way with me.
This isn't meant towards anyone in particular. I'm just going to send this out into that void called internet blogging and leave this alone for now. I'm tired, physically, mentally and emotionally. Goodnight.