All this free time has me thinkin..
As all my closest friends know, I've been through the roughest of times this year, and although my finances are stable, Mom and Dad are still hanging in there healthwise, I still feel as if something is missing.
There have been a lot of bridges burned over the years, ones that I have lost sleep over. Christine and Jayar, Mario, Cina, Jennifer, Rebecca, Leesa, Kristian, Neil.. all of the friends I haven't talked to in years. Cina, you especially. I love you from the bottom of my heart. I've been on the run for the last few years trying desperately to reach something, and i've neglected the very people that cared for me and may still want to hear from me. I am sorry, especially to you Cina. My promises never meant anything, and that's a nasty habit I've learned from Mark. I'm always on the run, too scared to get too close to anyone because I know nothing lasts forever, which has me avoiding every relationship altogether, but that's my own fault. I don't know your e-mail, and my old broken phone erased your cell phone number, but I know that you know I'm still here. If any of you guys above get this, just send me a private e-mail to nimjaz@aol.com. I don't check e-mail often, but I WILL reply, and hey, maybe you can leave your phone number and you might just get a call. And that goes for any of my LJ friends out there as well. I heart you all!
There have been a lot of bridges burned over the years, ones that I have lost sleep over. Christine and Jayar, Mario, Cina, Jennifer, Rebecca, Leesa, Kristian, Neil.. all of the friends I haven't talked to in years. Cina, you especially. I love you from the bottom of my heart. I've been on the run for the last few years trying desperately to reach something, and i've neglected the very people that cared for me and may still want to hear from me. I am sorry, especially to you Cina. My promises never meant anything, and that's a nasty habit I've learned from Mark. I'm always on the run, too scared to get too close to anyone because I know nothing lasts forever, which has me avoiding every relationship altogether, but that's my own fault. I don't know your e-mail, and my old broken phone erased your cell phone number, but I know that you know I'm still here. If any of you guys above get this, just send me a private e-mail to nimjaz@aol.com. I don't check e-mail often, but I WILL reply, and hey, maybe you can leave your phone number and you might just get a call. And that goes for any of my LJ friends out there as well. I heart you all!