realization
i think it took me helpin a friend as close as her to me allowed me to realize that realationships are the greatest and worst thing in the world. im going to compose a list of things that i have realized in the past few weeks.
I HAVE REALIZED THAT:
- alot of things in life dont come easy
- i miss having the connection and love of a relationship
- i dont mind being single so much even though ^ i said that
- i love her
- i love her too
- i need her to be around for me
- i am bipolar
- i have less friends that i thought
- depression is going to be a normal thing
- true love is few and far between
- i dont trust ANYONE
- school is becoming my escape from the world around me
- school is also the world that creates my depression and anger
- i have way too much self pity
- LIFE MUST GO ON!!
im not sure i know what friendship is, but i hope that it will be the next to be added to my list. for now i must live in my own sorrow and depression so to the people who care thank you. it means alot