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so i haven't been sleeping well. it's gone on for long enough that i didn't even realize until i was talking about how tired i am.
i toss and turn all night and wake up about once an hour. the only time i've rested in the past month is when i'm so exhausted that i collapse into bed rather than falling asleep.
i would say that it's stress or something, but i don't have a lot to be stressed about lately, and it's gotten worse within the past few days. in fact, things seem to be going really well for me. i have food, i found a girl that i'm really into who seems to feel the same, everything seems on an upswing.
but for some reason, i feel like punching holes in walls. i went out and smashed an old scanner on a fire hydrant last night because i felt such a need to release some violence. i don't know what's wrong with me.
it feels like everything around me is on fire. it feels like all i can hear is deafeningly loud silence. it feels like i'm being buried in sand and getting crushed from all sides.
i want to destroy something beautiful.
i toss and turn all night and wake up about once an hour. the only time i've rested in the past month is when i'm so exhausted that i collapse into bed rather than falling asleep.
i would say that it's stress or something, but i don't have a lot to be stressed about lately, and it's gotten worse within the past few days. in fact, things seem to be going really well for me. i have food, i found a girl that i'm really into who seems to feel the same, everything seems on an upswing.
but for some reason, i feel like punching holes in walls. i went out and smashed an old scanner on a fire hydrant last night because i felt such a need to release some violence. i don't know what's wrong with me.
it feels like everything around me is on fire. it feels like all i can hear is deafeningly loud silence. it feels like i'm being buried in sand and getting crushed from all sides.
i want to destroy something beautiful.