back to it,, im sorry i cant help loving you

[jsnay29]

Every time it comes, I know the way it will be
although I wish it wasn't,
no matter what is done, how hard I would try
it always comes to the same end,
this time is no different
and yet it is,
I still hold tight knowing how things will be
seeing the same problems
knowing the same pain
yet I still hold on, still hope,
do I seek punishment, want to hurt for my past,
I do not know, but I do it again
hold to the thorns coming from the rose,
but this time is different I still hold on
while blood drops down I still hold the thorns
and smile as if happy, what holds me here
and causes my lust to stay and never leave,
how is she different, I fear I will never know
I will only be where I am, never to see farther into that soul,
but I still stay looking only at the shell
knowing I will never see farther within,
I ask myself why, knowing I will never
get an answer I want, but I still stand
hoping, bleeding, hurting
for one that will NEVER BE MINE

what does it take
to be the light in someones life?
the only one they ever want to be with,
what does it take to find someone?
someone that you would drop everything
just to be with them,
even if for just a little while.
how do you become someone's dream come true?
the thing they've been looking for
all of their life?
how do you become the person
that someone has always wanted?
why is it so hard to tell someone
that they are all you have ever dreamed of,
all you have ever wanted
and all you have ever wished for.

i wish i knew cuz if i did i would be that for you, cuz u already are for me