Bday
Birthday to remember..turning 20. This is going to be the best birthday ever! I love twitching having uncontrolled movements its so fun!!! Worrying day to day whether my throat is going to close up. I absolutely love this shit. The record of ER visits so far totalling 12! gotta love it.
This year has had to be the worst fucking year ever. Eh...I want to die but I dont want to die. The twitching, muscle movement has calmed down compared to a month ago but still, feeling like youre never still is not fun. Of course things could be worse..yes...
I wonder why im even still around, I cant verbally express my thoughts as much as I like, I twitch, and do nothing anymore. So anyways were going to outback or something...if im feeling good im going to drink/drug until im nodding off into la la land. Hopefully college year is better.....
Im contemplating on whether or not I try the kratom again..it would be perfect but I just cant risk panic attacks..thats only if im feeling good, whichj I doubt will happen any time soon within the next week. dfk3rprrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfkpsdklffnkofnko
This year has had to be the worst fucking year ever. Eh...I want to die but I dont want to die. The twitching, muscle movement has calmed down compared to a month ago but still, feeling like youre never still is not fun. Of course things could be worse..yes...
I wonder why im even still around, I cant verbally express my thoughts as much as I like, I twitch, and do nothing anymore. So anyways were going to outback or something...if im feeling good im going to drink/drug until im nodding off into la la land. Hopefully college year is better.....
Im contemplating on whether or not I try the kratom again..it would be perfect but I just cant risk panic attacks..thats only if im feeling good, whichj I doubt will happen any time soon within the next week. dfk3rprrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrfkpsdklffnkofnko