Essay on homosexuality, love, family, life, and anything else
12/08/09
I wonder how far people would go to say they are related to a person or people. Would they actually research the relation or just believe whoever told them of it. My aunt, for example, told myself that I was related to a king or prince in France. He wasn’t one for long but it was still important to her. Now that I think back on it though I wonder. Did I dream she told me that or did I actually hear her speak or just misunderstand.
I think I misunderstood my aunt. I was young, no more than in my early teens if that. You can hear a lot of things wrong at that age. If you’re like me though, a person can actually forget things from when they were younger. Even think of certain stuff done as a dream or dreams.
I would love to research my ancestors. See where I came from, who I related to and etcetera. The only thing is that I know I wont. Oh, I’ll start the research and be into it for a couple months, maybe even a couple years. I was but nothing came out of it. Like before I’ll forget and when I remember decided not to do anymore research on my origins.
Not to say that I won’t do it in the future. On the contrary I love to look up new information. Reading is a passion of mine. When I’m interested in something I’m interested for a long time. Even if I haven’t done anything on the subject for years or months.
This is part of the reason I’m going for Paralegal Studies. Another reason is my love to help people. I might not want to be in the forefront but I would love to be there for someone. I want to know that even if it wasn’t big I did something. I tried my best and gave it all I got. Win or lose, I want to be proud of what I did, how I helped.
Enough of that. Back to why I started writing this. I’m curious, have always been curious. Of who I’m related to and why it’s so important for people to find out. Not enough to start researching on my own.
As you can tell I love problems. I don’t always understand them or even their questions but it doesn’t stop my love for them. I get a problem that has been bugging me and I try to answer it. Most times I get more questions than I answer. The ATF is one such problem that I got more questions than answers out of.
Relationships. Ancestors. There are millions of questions out of there. Millions of answers also. Is there one main answer though? Can there be only one common answer?
I don’t know. I personally think we will never know. Not to mention have one common answer. An answer all humans agree with. Considering all people are different there will be millions upon millions of answers.
Some might have the same type of answer. Some might be written the same only different. No one knows for sure though. No one knows why finding out our genealogy is so important.
It’s like God, Allah, or however you acknowledge him. It’s also like the gods and goddess’ s of Greece, Rome, and Egypt. The magic of the Celts, the Druids, Merlin. Jesus Christ, King Arthur, Muslims, Catholics, Jews, Baptists, Fundamentalists, Christianity itself, the devil, people who don’t believe either way, witchcraft, and others.
What I mean is this. What is real? What isn’t? Why is it so important to believe in only one religion, one deity. Why can’t someone believe in more than one?
I personally believe in magic itself, God, Jesus Christ, witches, warlocks, werewolves, vampires, and even the old gods and goddess’s, especially the Greek versions. Yes, I do believe in the Roman versions but the Greek are more well known. Egyptian god and goddess’s I also believe in. There are many versions of deity’s why couldn’t they all exist?
Even still exist. Just staying low until needed again. Like Merlin and King Arthur are supposedly waiting in Avalon or the deity’s of different patholeans are sleeping in the wake of the ‘Twilight’, the one true god faze.
I proclaim I’m a Christian and that I’m saved. But I doubt myself sometimes. How can I truly be a Christian and still believe in all I do? I asked this to a co-worker. She told me that if I believe in God I’m still a Christian. No one really knows what it means. We all have doubts but can still believe in God.
I do. Just like I believe in a lot of other things, I believe in God. Does that make me bad or weird? You don’t have to worship in a church. A person can worship anywhere. Just because someone was taught a certain way doesn’t mean that they have to do it that way.
Okay, I’m going to change the subject. If I’m going to keep on writing about my opinion lets do it on something else. Something that matters to every human now. Homosexuality.
This is going to be long just to warn anyone reading this.
So homosexuality. Is it wrong? Right? A disease of the mind? What?
This annoys me to tell the truth. Not gays, lesbians, bisexuals, transsexuals but the thoughts of people hating others just for their sexuality. My pastor is an example of this. According to him, God didn’t make men and women so they could love their own sex. He made us so he could have a companion. Someone to care for, speak with, etcetera. Pastor says he doesn’t hate gays and the rest but he wants to get them saved so they can be heterosexuality again. Isn’t a person saved either way? Doesn’t God love all his people not just the heterosexuals. We are made in God’s image and he still loves us through all our sins.
Oh, I know he got rid of Sodom and Gomorra because of their disregard of sexuality. Supposedly. What I don’t get is why humans hate other humans who are gay. God did the flood because we were bad, sinned to much, whatever. He promised never to do that again, yes.
If homosexuality is so wrong why doesn’t God smote them down? Why is there only a few passages (that I know of) based on the wrongness. Oh, AIDS is supposedly their sin. Yah, right. If AIDS was how come anyone can get it now, no matter your sexuality, age, weight, gender, and etcetera.
I hate people who claim their not against gays or racists. Then in the next sentence they bring those same people they ‘supposedly’ aren’t against down. Morons! How does anyone like you or care for you when you bring everyone except yourselves down? How?!?
I know we each have problems with something. I have problems with transsexuals and lesbians. I just like homosexuals and bisexuals better. But I try not to put down a certain group because of it. I do sometimes, I will admit but I try not to. No one can be perfect but if we admit our mistakes and keep trying to do better all humans will…be better/closer to what we as a people try to accede.
Personally I see nothing wrong with loving someone of your own sex. It happens. Just like having a polygamy marriage, falling in love with your cousin, or even a family member. I don’t understand these marriages people but should I really condemn them?
Incest. I do that in stories I write. Yes, the males aren’t related in real life but I still think of them as brothers. Should I stop? If I don’t understand, don’t like incest happening in real life should I stop writing about it in my fiction?
Another problem I wonder about. If being in a same sex relationship is so wrong why can I see it everywhere? In shows that are purely heterosexual I see slash (male/male or female/female) relationships. I don’t think there is one television show or even movie out there that doesn’t have a bit of ‘gay’ in it. Even people who don’t look at shows through ‘slash’ goggles can see it. Merlin, Supernatural, Doctor Who, Torchwood, Robin Hood, Numb3rs, CSI, CSI Miami, CSI NY, NCIS, NCIS Los Angelus, Buffy, Angel, Charmed, and even more show this. To be fair though Torchwood does have a gay relationship written into it. The main actor is actually gay.
Oh shows and their producers will claim it’s a really intense friendship. If it is why does it seem more? Here’s an example. In the first episode alone of Merlin, the title character saved the prince’s life. Yes, he’s a prince but Merlin isn’t even from Camelot and he saved his life just on a dragon’s word?!?
They claim not to like one another but why the intense saving of each other’s lives? Merlin saves Arthur again in the second episode and he ‘supposedly’ barely tolerates him. Then if the fourth episode Arthur disobeys his father, the King, to get a flower to save Merlin. All because Merlin drank poison. That episode and others (the tenth especially) are intense with friendship. Yah right! I dare someone who doesn’t like homosexuality that much to watch them. Than tell us if it’s just friendship/brothers or something more. I dare you!
[Some of these words, if not all, are from other people. To many to name but all on live journal mostly. Thank you for letting me use them and for getting me into Merlin, girls and boys. Thank you.]
There is so much more I can say on this subject. I have a lot of opinions, a lot to speak about. This is something I am very passionate about. I could spend hours, days, even weeks on speaking/writing about homosexuality. But I think, I hope, I got through to everyone in the small bit I did write.
Now that I finished writing about homosexuality, I’m having a bit of trouble figuring out what to write now. So for now I’m going to stop writing. At least stop with my thoughts and just concentrate on getting them organized.
(So this is my essay. What do you think?)