one step closer, and much ground covered
today i picked up my separation papers from my commander, fully signed and ready to go to the big bad air force personnel center. thats right, only one more step in this process. i can't really believe it, but it is what it is. i will drop it off tomorrow morning, and continue to pray. there are many other things going on currently in my life, so life will have to continue, and i'll just have to pray.
the thought of leaving the military still hasn't really sunk in. i mean, honestly, truly, sunk in. perhaps it won't until it happens. i think, however, that once word comes down from AFPC (the personnel place) one way or another, and if, as everyone thinks now, they say yes....oh, i think i may feel it then. i don't imagine my dried eyes and vacant places in my soul will be much of a combatant for the cries that will swell then.
i returned from Gtown this past weekend more alive and more grown than i had thought i was. going back allowed me to see myself not as some random guy in the air force who is trying to get out, but as a former student of that great institution who has found himself free from Georgetown dependencies for the first time. my goodness I love that city and that school. the students don't always have a firm grip on reality, but they sure try. all of my friends are different now...most in better ways, all in ways that, in the end, make them true to themselves. most are happier, more sure of themselves, simply more whole people. its pretty amazing what happens between sophomore and senior year. even the most indecisive of them make me so full of joy because they have so obviously become more fully who they were, and have not fallen victim to the crazy world around them.
its cool stuff. i'm sorta in their boat, with no definite plans for the future. maybe JVC...thats where i'm thinking at the moment. but who knows.
just finished Grapes of Wrath tonight. will write more about it later. man...good stuff, though. real good stuff.
the thought of leaving the military still hasn't really sunk in. i mean, honestly, truly, sunk in. perhaps it won't until it happens. i think, however, that once word comes down from AFPC (the personnel place) one way or another, and if, as everyone thinks now, they say yes....oh, i think i may feel it then. i don't imagine my dried eyes and vacant places in my soul will be much of a combatant for the cries that will swell then.
i returned from Gtown this past weekend more alive and more grown than i had thought i was. going back allowed me to see myself not as some random guy in the air force who is trying to get out, but as a former student of that great institution who has found himself free from Georgetown dependencies for the first time. my goodness I love that city and that school. the students don't always have a firm grip on reality, but they sure try. all of my friends are different now...most in better ways, all in ways that, in the end, make them true to themselves. most are happier, more sure of themselves, simply more whole people. its pretty amazing what happens between sophomore and senior year. even the most indecisive of them make me so full of joy because they have so obviously become more fully who they were, and have not fallen victim to the crazy world around them.
its cool stuff. i'm sorta in their boat, with no definite plans for the future. maybe JVC...thats where i'm thinking at the moment. but who knows.
just finished Grapes of Wrath tonight. will write more about it later. man...good stuff, though. real good stuff.