I'm back.... long time no type
Well... I haven't been on here in forever and A day. But I sorta had to type when I saw that last post of mine. Yeah, if you know me then you know that Mellissa and I broke up 2 days before my birthday. It blows, yeah, but whats new. I mean even before I had a chance to ask her if I could go to prom with her she already had a date. It took her a day to find somebody other than me after we broke up... 1 DAY. yeah it hurt, but anything after 1 day would hurt.
I still want to go back out with her, even though broke up with her. But hey, It's my fault why we had to break up. I got in a hissy fit with her mom, and it upset her parents and they were making her miserable. I told Mellissa that me breaking up with her would eventually make her happy. And I was right. She's been hanging out with her friends on the weekends, been hanging out with people after school. Been able to do a lot more stuff now that I'm out of the picture. Ever since I have known her, her parents would always ground her if she would be out past 11pm. Two days in a row she's out till 12 or 1 and her parents don't even bat an eye. I knew that she would be a lot happier without me, and I was right.
What I didn't realize, is that When she was out hanging out with other guys and her friends, people hitting on her, her going to prom, after all of this I didn't ever reallize that she was my whole world. I don't really have anyone to be with now. I am, for the first time in a year, alone. I have no one to be with. My dad's always at work, I don't have any friends that want to hang out with me. I don't even have a pet to welcome me home.
I envy Mellissa, for she has it better than she thinks. For awhile I wanted to win her back, and deep down I still do. But I have a feeling she is long past over me. I breaks my heart to know that when I leave Boonville, I won't have anyone to come back to. I do still love her, but it scares me to think she doesn't love me anymore. I might try to get her back after prom so it isn't so awkward, but I'm afraid it is already to late, and if it isn't now, It will be to late after words.
I really don't know whats going to happen to me in the future, but I still do like to think that maybe, I'll be lucky enough to come home to an actual family, including Mellissa.
I still want to go back out with her, even though broke up with her. But hey, It's my fault why we had to break up. I got in a hissy fit with her mom, and it upset her parents and they were making her miserable. I told Mellissa that me breaking up with her would eventually make her happy. And I was right. She's been hanging out with her friends on the weekends, been hanging out with people after school. Been able to do a lot more stuff now that I'm out of the picture. Ever since I have known her, her parents would always ground her if she would be out past 11pm. Two days in a row she's out till 12 or 1 and her parents don't even bat an eye. I knew that she would be a lot happier without me, and I was right.
What I didn't realize, is that When she was out hanging out with other guys and her friends, people hitting on her, her going to prom, after all of this I didn't ever reallize that she was my whole world. I don't really have anyone to be with now. I am, for the first time in a year, alone. I have no one to be with. My dad's always at work, I don't have any friends that want to hang out with me. I don't even have a pet to welcome me home.
I envy Mellissa, for she has it better than she thinks. For awhile I wanted to win her back, and deep down I still do. But I have a feeling she is long past over me. I breaks my heart to know that when I leave Boonville, I won't have anyone to come back to. I do still love her, but it scares me to think she doesn't love me anymore. I might try to get her back after prom so it isn't so awkward, but I'm afraid it is already to late, and if it isn't now, It will be to late after words.
I really don't know whats going to happen to me in the future, but I still do like to think that maybe, I'll be lucky enough to come home to an actual family, including Mellissa.