this ones dedicated to the asshole i fell in love with.....
so i havent left a pissed off post in a while so here goes one..... the other day brian and i started fighting, and it just didnt end. until like 2 days later when he had me crying i was so upset. and i told him i really needed to talk to him and wanted to talk in person, but he only wanted to talk on the phone. so i ended things with him and i was really upset. so i was trying to get over him which is really hard because hes everything i want, and i was saying that i wish i never met him and the usual, and he found out and got pissy with me. and called me the other night and we just started fighting, and whatever. so yesterday when i was on a break i text messaged him saying that i hope he had fun at his birthday party at buffalo wild wings, and happy early birthday cuz i wouldnt talk to him or see him before then. he replies... "thanks" wtf kind of shit is that?! then a little while later im in my room and he sends me another one "ALMOST 21!! YAY!!" ok... just really pissed me off.... today i go to leave to go pick up my paycheck and i see his room mate. and he stops me and is like so are you and brian still seeing eachother. and i was like no. and he said well guess what hes doing right now? and i was like not that i care, but what is he doing? and he said that he was upstairs sleeping with kyle HIS EX BOYFRIEND WHO CAUSED ALL THIS DRAMA TO START WITH!!!!! so i called steph and was so upset.... when i got back to the room i told matt that i hated brian and why i did. then he left and 2 minutes later brian knocked on my door and asked why matt just told him i hated him. and when i wouldnt tell him who told me he got all pissy and said that he didnt sleep with kyle, and started walking away and i slammed the door. then i go outside and im talking to richard while i was waiting for steph to come out, and brian came out with some people and sat down... i didnt say anything to him... then stephs ex boyfriend who works on dragster too came over and still i didnt say anything to brian. richard got up to go over to say hi to steph, and then i got up and didnt say anything and just left. so brian was talking to stephs ex, and then the ex (brian marinelli) came over and said that he didnt know why i was mad at him, and brian marinelli said he was a fucking dumbass. so whatever..... i go to the park, and as we were leaving i saw brian druga, so me and steph race to get in front of him so he would notice me. and it worked perfectly... he came over and was like i really need to talk to you but i dont have any minutes. which is bullshit cuz if you really have to talk to someone you dont care how many minutes you have. so whatever i was like this isnt the place or time to talk to me, and ill be in my room in a little while.... he says well can i just tell you that im sorry for being an asshole to you if that even doe anything. and i was just like ok.. and left. while i was gone brian told steph that i had no reason to be mad at him cuz we werent together... why would i be mad if nothing happend?!?! because brian is a liar... which if he comes over here im gonna tell him the reason i dont want to talk to him any more is cuz i cant trust him.... i cant believe he threw away his last possible chance by sleeping with kyle one last time before kyle quit today and left. well you know what now brians life sucks cuz i dont talk to him, and kyle left. so he has no guy in his life. and i hope no one feels sorry for him cuz he did this to himself!! he had a month and a half to have me.... and he threw that all away.... so the purpouse of this entry is cuz i bought the maroon 5 cd cuz brian loved it, and played it all the time. and i said a couple weeks ago that if something didnt work out between us i wouldnt be able to listen to that cd the same anymore. well i was driving to the bank today and i listened tothe words of this song, and it totally spells out my life. its called "Through with you" and this is how it goes....
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
ok im going to finish my laundry right now, so i can go out tonight and have a good time and make sure he feels like shit!!! later biatches.....
Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it
And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well
And how long has it been
Since someone you let in
Has given what I gave to you
And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?
You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that
Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you
ok im going to finish my laundry right now, so i can go out tonight and have a good time and make sure he feels like shit!!! later biatches.....