Gift fic for make_me_ramen

[rocky_rudolph]

For: make_me_ramen
From: Naughty Reindeer

Title: Going home
Pairings/Characters: Gazette: Kai/Ruki. tiny mention of Uruha/Ruki & maybe Aoi/Reita.
Rating: R
Warnings: none.
Notes: make_me_ramen, I hope you can find something in it that you like. and that you really like angst. merry Christmas! :)
Summary: Ruki is running after something. Kai is chasing Ruki's shadow.

Comments

[anonymous]

This was so very brilliant, such an oppressive atmosphere, the future of the band (the future of them, not even as members of the band but just as people) so heavy on Kai's shoulders, that it might as well be the weigh of the whole world. But it never becomes so overwhelming that it breaks you, breaks Kai, completely. Not even at the very end. They just keep on going, together, no matter how messy it is.

There are so many things to love here. The descriptions in general, simple and clear; this comparison he sunk head first like a burning warship in the middle of a battle; with no hope., so clever, so painful, and so perfect; the dark humor of Kai's thoughts Uruha sways into the dressing room and claims he’s the Snow Queen. Kai wishes spring would come until he remembers that it’s even worse in spring. Then he wishes he had a gun., at the brink of insanity, but always teetering on the very edge of it; the characters not just lost and empty and crazy (in a genius sort of way) Ruki and Kai, just trying to hold on, to keep everything together, but all of them, so fleshed out, so clear in focus, in those few lines given to them; Aoi “No way. Kai’s not even half as hot,” Aoi flicks cigarette ash to someone’s half-full cup of coffee. “No offense.” so arrogant and annoying, but completely irresistible against your better judgement; Reita Only Reita stays the same, because he will always stay the same, blond and spiky and full of wrongly directed faith., Reita, Reita, Reita, so faithful, so constant, so deserving of all our love ; the two of them together (“food,” say Reita’s eyes; “I like to push your buttons,” says Aoi’s smile) unlike Kai and Ruki (and Uruha) with something purer between them; Uruha (they left Uruha in the hotel bar, which is where they often leave him; he will emerge after hours of drinking, radiating a cat-like smile and energy as if he had just been born; it’s scary) such a drunkard, but not in that painful way that makes you worry (at least not yet), just drunk but functioning despite or exactly because of it; the irony of everything Kai looks around for Ruki, who has wandered ahead with no intention to stop and Kai knows he has to follow him before Ruki falls down one rabbit hole or another. It’s such a repetitive feeling, it’s somewhere between funnily tragic and tragically funny.

[hereticpop]

jesus christ, whoever you are, you have an amazing way of commenting. thank you so much. <3

[anonymous]

I loved your stories before. I hope you continue writing Gazette fanfiction <3

[cateris]

Oh, but I'm sure you know her too well :)