gift fic for duckyangel
For: duckyangel
HAPPY VALENTINE~
Title: for you
Pairing: Manabu x Kazuki
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: hinted/mentioned mpreg, angst
Summary: Manabu has a surprise for his lover, but when it comes to telling him, he gets insecure.
Notes: I’m sorry there’s no smut. I wanted, but the muses didn’t. … may you enjoy the best I could make of it…
Manabu sat in the train that would take him home. He was staring out of the window, watching the landscape in the sunlight that slowly turned orange, then red and pink as the sun started to go down for the night. The trees and houses were flying by, just like his thoughts, and the more he tried to hold onto them, the faster they moved on.
He had down so much, given up so much, spent time and energy, and now, now that it turned out to be a success, he didn’t know how to proceed. Thoughtfully his hand moved to his stomach, lightly poking the small but clearly present bulge there. He would have to eat more, they had said. They didn’t like that he was so slim… it wasn’t healthy, they said. But it was hard for him to gain weight…
But he would try now…
Still… how should he explain it? What was he supposed to tell Kazuki? Should he just be open? What… if after all, he didn’t want it? He had done this for him...
What if…
He didn’t get to finish his thoughts as his stop was announced, and he had to get out. His steps were slow as he moved out of the train and towards the exit, but he didn’t get to it. Halfway there, he saw Kazuki, waiting for him with a broad smile on his face. He was looking so happy… so pretty… what if he had made a mistake?
His thoughts were interrupted again when Kazuki reached him and hugged him gently, kissing his lips so softly that one would think he was afraid he could hurt him by kissing him with more force. Manabu wrapped his arms around his lover in return, holding onto him for support. Usually… he could just tell him everything, but now… now it seemed so hard! He could be there, just relax in his arms, but he couldn’t open his mouth to tell him what was happening… and fortunately Kazuki didn’t seem to notice.
They walked home in silence. The way wasn’t far, and it was pleasant to just walk, arms linked, while around them it started snowing again. It was so peaceful… yet Manabu’s thoughts were still racing. He was testing out ways to say it, trying to make it sound less weird, even though that wasn’t possible…
By the time they reached their home, he hadn’t gotten anywhere with his thinking, and it was frustrating him to no end. They both got rid of their shoes and coats - for the first time since they had moved together, Manabu wouldn’t allow Kazuki to help him, what irritated the other a lot - and Manabu dashed off to the kitchen to “get something to drink”. When he came back, Kazuki was sitting on the couch, a frown on his pretty face as he stared at some random spot on the wall.
“Kazuki…”, Manabu said quietly as he approached his lover, “We… need to talk”
As if Manabu’s words had caused some alarm to go off, Kazuki stared at him, then got up and hugged him tightly. Manabu noticed that he was shaking… and his eyes widened.
“Bu… whatever I did, I’m sorry. I… you know me, I’m stupid sometimes and I don’t notice but… but…”
Manabu pulled back a little and covered Kazuki’s mouth with his hand.
“No, you did nothing wrong”, he hummed, trying to calm his lover down, but the look in Kazuki’s eyes only got more desperate. He looked like he was panicking. What… was he thinking? Manabu blinked, then he kissed the other’s lips softly.
“Love, I’m not breaking up with you”, he said calmly, and instantly he saw how Kazuki relaxed, “It’s something else… something… I can’t do without you… and… I hope it will make you happy…”
He took a deep breath, ignoring the confused look in Kazuki’s eyes.
“You know… there is this new doctor in town… who does various things with hormone therapy… and I went to him because… I wanted to make you happy… and give you something that… I know you wanted for a long time…”, Manabu tried to explain, unable to look at Kazuki while he spoke, “We… are going to have a baby…”
Now he looked at Kazuki, and he saw that his eyes were wide with disbelieve. Then he pulled away, looking at Manabu hesitantly, before he dropped to his knees, staring at the other’s belly.
“You mean… you are…?”
“Yes… I am…”
Manabu couldn’t believe how fast his heart was beating as Kazuki lifted up his shirt to get a good view at hist stomach and the barely visible bulge there. Kazuki looked at it, then up into Manabu’s face, then back down, before he gently placed a kiss on the skin.
“You have no idea… no idea how happy I am…”, he whispered, “Because I’m still too surprised to show it… and shower you in kisses like I will in a bit… I… I love you…”
“I love you too…”, Manabu hummed softly, smiling happily now that the tension was gone. Suddenly it seemed like he never had a reason to worry…
After some moments, Kazuki suddenly pulled back again and stood up, grinning.
“Now… I also have a present for you, but it suddenly seems… wrong”, he said thoughtfully, scratching his head, but Manabu’s eyes started to glow.
“What is it? Give it to me!”, he demanded, smiling happily as he took Kazuki’s hand and stared at him expectantly.
Kazuki squirmed mentally, apparently having a hard time figuring out how to do whatever he had to do. Then he pulled Manabu to the couch and pulled up a bag that had colorful red and pink hearts all over it. It looked so pretty… and Manabu didn’t hesitate to take it when Kazuki handed it to him. He looked inside and … blinked confusedly. A moment later he reached into the bag and pulled out a very soft, purple piece of clothing… a scarf? No…
He blushed crimson when he identified the thing as a dress… a really short, silken dress…
“You… spent too much time with Byou…”, Manabu muttered, observing the dress.
“But it would look so pretty on you, wouldn’t it?”, Kazuki said, also blushing a little as Manabu looked at him. Then to his surprise, Manabu started laughing softly.
“Alright… I will wear it for you tonight… but… I get to do to you whatever I want”, he said and grinned, remembering the handcuffs that Byou had given him to Kazuki’s birthday last year. He had never used (or questioned) the present, but maybe now was the time.
Kazuki hesitated, then he smiled.
“Sounds good… I’m all yours, my love…”, he whispered, before he pulled Manabu into his lap, so he could kiss him again.
HAPPY VALENTINE~
Title: for you
Pairing: Manabu x Kazuki
Rating: PG-13
Warnings: hinted/mentioned mpreg, angst
Summary: Manabu has a surprise for his lover, but when it comes to telling him, he gets insecure.
Notes: I’m sorry there’s no smut. I wanted, but the muses didn’t. … may you enjoy the best I could make of it…
Manabu sat in the train that would take him home. He was staring out of the window, watching the landscape in the sunlight that slowly turned orange, then red and pink as the sun started to go down for the night. The trees and houses were flying by, just like his thoughts, and the more he tried to hold onto them, the faster they moved on.
He had down so much, given up so much, spent time and energy, and now, now that it turned out to be a success, he didn’t know how to proceed. Thoughtfully his hand moved to his stomach, lightly poking the small but clearly present bulge there. He would have to eat more, they had said. They didn’t like that he was so slim… it wasn’t healthy, they said. But it was hard for him to gain weight…
But he would try now…
Still… how should he explain it? What was he supposed to tell Kazuki? Should he just be open? What… if after all, he didn’t want it? He had done this for him...
What if…
He didn’t get to finish his thoughts as his stop was announced, and he had to get out. His steps were slow as he moved out of the train and towards the exit, but he didn’t get to it. Halfway there, he saw Kazuki, waiting for him with a broad smile on his face. He was looking so happy… so pretty… what if he had made a mistake?
His thoughts were interrupted again when Kazuki reached him and hugged him gently, kissing his lips so softly that one would think he was afraid he could hurt him by kissing him with more force. Manabu wrapped his arms around his lover in return, holding onto him for support. Usually… he could just tell him everything, but now… now it seemed so hard! He could be there, just relax in his arms, but he couldn’t open his mouth to tell him what was happening… and fortunately Kazuki didn’t seem to notice.
They walked home in silence. The way wasn’t far, and it was pleasant to just walk, arms linked, while around them it started snowing again. It was so peaceful… yet Manabu’s thoughts were still racing. He was testing out ways to say it, trying to make it sound less weird, even though that wasn’t possible…
By the time they reached their home, he hadn’t gotten anywhere with his thinking, and it was frustrating him to no end. They both got rid of their shoes and coats - for the first time since they had moved together, Manabu wouldn’t allow Kazuki to help him, what irritated the other a lot - and Manabu dashed off to the kitchen to “get something to drink”. When he came back, Kazuki was sitting on the couch, a frown on his pretty face as he stared at some random spot on the wall.
“Kazuki…”, Manabu said quietly as he approached his lover, “We… need to talk”
As if Manabu’s words had caused some alarm to go off, Kazuki stared at him, then got up and hugged him tightly. Manabu noticed that he was shaking… and his eyes widened.
“Bu… whatever I did, I’m sorry. I… you know me, I’m stupid sometimes and I don’t notice but… but…”
Manabu pulled back a little and covered Kazuki’s mouth with his hand.
“No, you did nothing wrong”, he hummed, trying to calm his lover down, but the look in Kazuki’s eyes only got more desperate. He looked like he was panicking. What… was he thinking? Manabu blinked, then he kissed the other’s lips softly.
“Love, I’m not breaking up with you”, he said calmly, and instantly he saw how Kazuki relaxed, “It’s something else… something… I can’t do without you… and… I hope it will make you happy…”
He took a deep breath, ignoring the confused look in Kazuki’s eyes.
“You know… there is this new doctor in town… who does various things with hormone therapy… and I went to him because… I wanted to make you happy… and give you something that… I know you wanted for a long time…”, Manabu tried to explain, unable to look at Kazuki while he spoke, “We… are going to have a baby…”
Now he looked at Kazuki, and he saw that his eyes were wide with disbelieve. Then he pulled away, looking at Manabu hesitantly, before he dropped to his knees, staring at the other’s belly.
“You mean… you are…?”
“Yes… I am…”
Manabu couldn’t believe how fast his heart was beating as Kazuki lifted up his shirt to get a good view at hist stomach and the barely visible bulge there. Kazuki looked at it, then up into Manabu’s face, then back down, before he gently placed a kiss on the skin.
“You have no idea… no idea how happy I am…”, he whispered, “Because I’m still too surprised to show it… and shower you in kisses like I will in a bit… I… I love you…”
“I love you too…”, Manabu hummed softly, smiling happily now that the tension was gone. Suddenly it seemed like he never had a reason to worry…
After some moments, Kazuki suddenly pulled back again and stood up, grinning.
“Now… I also have a present for you, but it suddenly seems… wrong”, he said thoughtfully, scratching his head, but Manabu’s eyes started to glow.
“What is it? Give it to me!”, he demanded, smiling happily as he took Kazuki’s hand and stared at him expectantly.
Kazuki squirmed mentally, apparently having a hard time figuring out how to do whatever he had to do. Then he pulled Manabu to the couch and pulled up a bag that had colorful red and pink hearts all over it. It looked so pretty… and Manabu didn’t hesitate to take it when Kazuki handed it to him. He looked inside and … blinked confusedly. A moment later he reached into the bag and pulled out a very soft, purple piece of clothing… a scarf? No…
He blushed crimson when he identified the thing as a dress… a really short, silken dress…
“You… spent too much time with Byou…”, Manabu muttered, observing the dress.
“But it would look so pretty on you, wouldn’t it?”, Kazuki said, also blushing a little as Manabu looked at him. Then to his surprise, Manabu started laughing softly.
“Alright… I will wear it for you tonight… but… I get to do to you whatever I want”, he said and grinned, remembering the handcuffs that Byou had given him to Kazuki’s birthday last year. He had never used (or questioned) the present, but maybe now was the time.
Kazuki hesitated, then he smiled.
“Sounds good… I’m all yours, my love…”, he whispered, before he pulled Manabu into his lap, so he could kiss him again.