Family...
OK...so I've been a member of my family for more than forty-four years now and am no closer to understanding these people than I was when some of them were changing my diapers. Some of them turned out to be so much less than I thought they were that I find myself asking me, "Dude...is it you thinking too highly of them and expecting too much? Or is it them being so much less than they really should be?" I think the answer is yes...on both counts. Maybe my idea of what family should mean to each other isn't shared by all parties...ok, let's rephrase that...delete the "maybe" cuz there simply isn't any question about it. This fact doesn't make it any easier to decide how to deal with the inherent bullshit that comes attached to having a relationship of any sort with some of them, but I think I've finally picked the position of Want little, expect even less when it comes to those difficult-to-deal-with-peeps. I wouldn't mind having the option of just forgetting they exist, but that won't be because there's just too much history. (at least from my end of it....I sorta get the impression that there's absolutely no sleep lost on the other end of this) There is some hope (I am the eternal optimist after all) that these people will eventually get their heads out of their asses (..a serious medical condition known as RECTAL-CRANIAL INVERSION ...) and right the wrongs they've done by being man enough to admit to and sincerely apologize for their actions........ok, just in case hell does freeze over...
I don't claim to be perfect and I realize that the possibility exists that there's something that I did that caused some of this dissension in the ranks, but, if that be the case, VOICE YOUR FREAKIN' OPINION!!! I am quite realistic and resilient....I won't shrivel up and die if someone has an adverse opinion of me...I will do what I have to do to make things right between us if I did something wrong and I would be the first one to admit if I screwed up.
The almost stupid part of all this is that I can be fairly certain that if a major crisis arose in the family, we'd all band together like there were never any issues. It's almost stupid because if you feel that way in a crisis, you should get past the stupidity and feel like that all the time. Yes, everyone has their quirks, but quirks shouldn't destroy what used to be an extremely tight family....is it just me?
Friends, family....comment away...
I don't claim to be perfect and I realize that the possibility exists that there's something that I did that caused some of this dissension in the ranks, but, if that be the case, VOICE YOUR FREAKIN' OPINION!!! I am quite realistic and resilient....I won't shrivel up and die if someone has an adverse opinion of me...I will do what I have to do to make things right between us if I did something wrong and I would be the first one to admit if I screwed up.
The almost stupid part of all this is that I can be fairly certain that if a major crisis arose in the family, we'd all band together like there were never any issues. It's almost stupid because if you feel that way in a crisis, you should get past the stupidity and feel like that all the time. Yes, everyone has their quirks, but quirks shouldn't destroy what used to be an extremely tight family....is it just me?
Friends, family....comment away...