you may now proceed to ramble...

[jrg77]

what a day/night. a lot going on. been thinking a lot about many people in my life. who i want to stay. who i need to stay. who haven't been there for me. who have been. one thing remains the same, i really believe in the end, all you have is yourself. and if you are lucky enough to have one or two really close people along for the ride, then you are ahead of the game. it's easy to resort back to familiar ways and situations, but the truth of the matter is, it takes a stronger person to grow from those experiences. learn from them. and while it may be hard to move on from them, in time it can only get better. some things or people will never leave you but you shouldn't let the past complicate the future. i have realized that i don't know as much as i thought i did. i am still figuring a lot of things out. i'm still learning more about me and who i am. i don't think that's such a bad thing. i'm trying more and more to take one day at a time. take each day/moment as it comes. i don't have to know how everything is going to turn out, as long as i know i am working towards something. today i was able to breathe a little better. it was a nice feeling. i just hope that as each day begins, i am able to hold on to that feeling. and if by chance i can't, then i will cross that bridge when i get to it. nothing is ever easy, if it were, there would be no purpose, no learning, no chance. things will get better. i will be happy again in time. i know that. and whenever that time may come, i will be ready. i will do my best to embrace it.

JACK: "All the really exciting things in life require more courage than we currently have. A deep breath and a leap. See Joey, the kind of fear you're talking about... sometimes it's how you know what's worthwhile."