just to avoid it all
i was just today having a conversation with a good friend of mine.....
"i get fucked up just to feel something besides this empty feeling i always have. just to aviod it all. all the fucking empty time that follows me around.... and it's because i know that i have conrtol over that. the abuse. that is one thing i know will never leave me, not unless i want it to..."
"it's the need to know that i'm not fucking alone; the idea that someone else is out there thinking about me. and not because i'm making them.. because they fucking want to "
...people kill them selves to keep from being lonely or worse...alone.
"i get fucked up just to feel something besides this empty feeling i always have. just to aviod it all. all the fucking empty time that follows me around.... and it's because i know that i have conrtol over that. the abuse. that is one thing i know will never leave me, not unless i want it to..."
"it's the need to know that i'm not fucking alone; the idea that someone else is out there thinking about me. and not because i'm making them.. because they fucking want to "
...people kill them selves to keep from being lonely or worse...alone.