beat yourself up, so no one else can

[jreed8]

why does something always need to be going wrong... i try really hard not to say anything, but honestly, it's either i tell you how i feel, or you just go around htinking that everythings ok, while i'm really killing myself inside.....

the good things;
a boyfirend who loves me
moving in jan
18 days until i fly in for thanksgiving
our parents meeting
in school
good grades thus far
some sort of a skeleton of having friends
to busy to be sad...thank god
i dont cry as much
not to much to be sad about
i get to see my cousin rob alot here
and meet people in "the business"
i get to go to shows
i get to perform almost every day in one of my classes
it's not really cold here yet
i have cutes scarves
cindy mails me letters once a week
smith gave me her address so we can FINALLY start sending mail back and forth!
my gloves are being mailed to me
wesley sent me sunflowers
dinner at C.P.K.
i sent sergio a new post card
...and i'm sure there's more

so i guess there's good and bad things in everyones life.... mine are mostly emotional i suppose, which means i'll just have to smile through them this time......

i love you welsey
i am sorry