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I feel like I'm caught between wanting to push time forward and wanting to hold it back...I really do feel weighed down by work right now in a way that makes me feel that much more drained for the things I really value. And I know it tends to work out in the end, but it would be nice to really know that, or to be consistent in my sense of what it means, academically, for things to work out. And then I remind myself that what I want to do after college, I don't need to stress out about my grades - but when I think about that, I start stressing about the Social Contract I got hired to write for CCNE, and how that's going to get done, and the face that each time we talk about it it turns out the project has changed since the last time doesn't help.
But I can't think about moving past this point without thinking about what it will mean to move from a no longer sustainable or always healthy but deeply supportive and comforting relationship to being alone.
But I can't think about moving past this point without thinking about what it will mean to move from a no longer sustainable or always healthy but deeply supportive and comforting relationship to being alone.