Life is sad
I really hate this.
I mean really nothing is going on in which I should feel unhappy about, or upset about.. but I'm not happy. I think about what I do in my day, and I don't really do anything. All I do nowadays is work. Then when I get off I hang out with a few friends at Eric's house.
Thats about it.
I do every now and again go to a poker tournament or go watch a movie or play tennis, but there is nothing exciting going on. Seriously, yeah when I'm doing it, it seems fun enough and that I enjoy it, but when I think about where I am and where I want to be in life, it just doesn't add up even.
I want to be in CA going to college. I want to be back in school meeting new people and new friends that I can keep for the rest of my life. I don't have that. I have the same circle of friends that I have always had. Which is real cool, its nice knowing they are always there. But...
What I think it is, is finally realizing that I'm not meeting the new people I wanted to. I'm not being able to express the creativity in which is inside me that needs to be released. OH WELL.
For now I take what I can get, and keep the smiles and laughter until I can always show it.
Love now.
J.
I mean really nothing is going on in which I should feel unhappy about, or upset about.. but I'm not happy. I think about what I do in my day, and I don't really do anything. All I do nowadays is work. Then when I get off I hang out with a few friends at Eric's house.
Thats about it.
I do every now and again go to a poker tournament or go watch a movie or play tennis, but there is nothing exciting going on. Seriously, yeah when I'm doing it, it seems fun enough and that I enjoy it, but when I think about where I am and where I want to be in life, it just doesn't add up even.
I want to be in CA going to college. I want to be back in school meeting new people and new friends that I can keep for the rest of my life. I don't have that. I have the same circle of friends that I have always had. Which is real cool, its nice knowing they are always there. But...
What I think it is, is finally realizing that I'm not meeting the new people I wanted to. I'm not being able to express the creativity in which is inside me that needs to be released. OH WELL.
For now I take what I can get, and keep the smiles and laughter until I can always show it.
Love now.
J.