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So...where do I stand? hmmm...Life is just confusing. Too much going on. Too much to plan and yet I do nothing. *sigh* Sometimes I just think I'm selfish when I expect people to come find me. It's like I'm tired of putting out the effort to make and keep friends or something. I just come home and sit here and spend way too many fruitless hours on the phone. I just have to keep things together for another month and then I run off to a place where it doesn't matter what anyone things of me...I can say that I will be myself and not be so uptight and worried about what people think. I've always been too selfconcious...not comfortable in my own skin I guess. The only time I was happy through and through (except for minor irritations) was that wonderful 5 weeks that changed everything...On that note...those ties still keep popping up...I ran into Jason ran into a tree at work today. It was pretty cool b/c I was not expecting him to be there.....anyway...I need to find myself and figure out what I want....never have been very good at that...never put myself out on a limb...I almost always worry what people will think...no matter who it is. I don't say what I think and that is bad.