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Alright, so there's a bit of work to be done before anything gets finalized. I am going to talk to my parents this weekend and tell them what I want. But I realized night before last when I was feeling lonely, that my whole plan is contingent on being able to be with him next year. And I just found out that he definately won't have his permanent duty orders until several weeks after placement for schools next year. Since his requests all border the East Coast, I'll just make mine that way to and IF the good Lord wills it, we'll end up in the same state. IF that happens, we'll get married in Aug and I'll live w/ him for a year and then come back to school. And everything will be all hunky-dory. But, in the meantime, we're looking into the practicality of getting married. Perhaps a change of schools as long as there is a good engineering school nearby. I'll apply see what sort of scholarships I can get, what credits transfer, possibility for in state tuition, ect, ect. Check out his actual benefits to getting married and all that jazz. We're starting to ask questions and my fluffy pink could that was holding me up is kinda disappearing. I refuse to let the idea go, but realize it's going to take some work. If we can find a way to be together, we will get married this summer. Otherwise, it'll wait. I don't want to marry him until it can be a marriage. Getting married mean being together most of the time. My heart is set on being w/ him and we're going to see what we can do to make that happen. I just got excited at the idea that we could actually arrange to be really close to each other and in that case would want to marry him. But the whole lonliness and then finding out last night that his tech school, where he'll find out his permanent duty station is the last school he goes to. Not the next. He'll be in San Antonio for 3 more weeks for flight crew training, Washington state for just over 17 days survival training, the Florida for like 6 days of water traing and then Altus, OK for 5 weeks. Around the 3rd week he'll get his orders, so that's like 10 weeks. Spring Break, when the placement for schools happens is only like 7 weeks away. :( So, we'll just have to see what happens. And at the moment I'm disappointed in realizing that things may not happen but I know it's good to be realizing what needs to be done to make my dreams come true.