MoNOtonY SUx
I am antsy! I don't wanna be here, but I don't know where I wanna be. Here, where is here, don't know. State of mind, state of place, all the above. Yeah it's that time again, when I feel suffocated (sp?) with the monotony of life and I just wanna do something sporatic!
I cannot cut my hair- gotta grow it out for the wedding. Afterwards I'm gonna cut 10inches off and donate it. Jon thinks I'm kidding, deep down he knows I'm not and he doesn't like it. He threatens to shave his head and wear a Confederate flag shirt. It's an idle threat b/c he knows that would be totally crossing the line in my book!
Cannot move. Did that in April. Cannot get a knew job. Did that in March. Want a dog but Jon's dragging his feet now and told me to stop obsessing over it. I've wanted a dog for 6 years!
Gonna see the Tigers Weds night. Eating in Greektown. Lemme know if anyone wants to meet up there. My sister and parents are gonna be there too. And my parents friends. But we can ditch them (minus stacey she should come).
Stacey will be 21 October 6th. I will post her number and all should call her. Offered to rent her a hotel room for her and friends in downtown Gr Rapids but her friends are younger than her. Told her should could borrow mine, they're crazy and don't care who they drink with. although to be honest they will probably like her better than me. and I want her to date my coworker. cuz I think she'd like him and he her. but she's still with HIM (yeah Fucko's friend).
I'm taking some vacation time (8hrs in total) for labor day weekend for no reason besides I don't wanna be at work anymore. Will be camping the following weekend with Jon somewhere in MI.
I wanna smoke pot. I wanna do something silly and stupid and immature and crazy and something to make me feel like I'm alive! Can't go to another country- saving money plus I don't think Jon nor work will take that too well. See ya guys I'm off to Portugal for the month. Plus now that I'm not in school it's harder to set that stuff up.
I gotta do something. Or I'm gonna scream. I could do that, but it just lasts a few seconds. and it tends to scare people. whatever it is I better think of something or else it'll be something absolutely ridiculously irresponsible.
I feel it's coming out at work (my irrationalism) evidence: calling a coworker from a bar to tell him he sucks that he chose to go to work over us, mumbling that a patient's daughter needs to suck cock (overheard by coworker-who luckily laughed), not filtering my hatred and desire to fire the new secretary that I'm pissed as all hell that my manager hired.
AAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I cannot cut my hair- gotta grow it out for the wedding. Afterwards I'm gonna cut 10inches off and donate it. Jon thinks I'm kidding, deep down he knows I'm not and he doesn't like it. He threatens to shave his head and wear a Confederate flag shirt. It's an idle threat b/c he knows that would be totally crossing the line in my book!
Cannot move. Did that in April. Cannot get a knew job. Did that in March. Want a dog but Jon's dragging his feet now and told me to stop obsessing over it. I've wanted a dog for 6 years!
Gonna see the Tigers Weds night. Eating in Greektown. Lemme know if anyone wants to meet up there. My sister and parents are gonna be there too. And my parents friends. But we can ditch them (minus stacey she should come).
Stacey will be 21 October 6th. I will post her number and all should call her. Offered to rent her a hotel room for her and friends in downtown Gr Rapids but her friends are younger than her. Told her should could borrow mine, they're crazy and don't care who they drink with. although to be honest they will probably like her better than me. and I want her to date my coworker. cuz I think she'd like him and he her. but she's still with HIM (yeah Fucko's friend).
I'm taking some vacation time (8hrs in total) for labor day weekend for no reason besides I don't wanna be at work anymore. Will be camping the following weekend with Jon somewhere in MI.
I wanna smoke pot. I wanna do something silly and stupid and immature and crazy and something to make me feel like I'm alive! Can't go to another country- saving money plus I don't think Jon nor work will take that too well. See ya guys I'm off to Portugal for the month. Plus now that I'm not in school it's harder to set that stuff up.
I gotta do something. Or I'm gonna scream. I could do that, but it just lasts a few seconds. and it tends to scare people. whatever it is I better think of something or else it'll be something absolutely ridiculously irresponsible.
I feel it's coming out at work (my irrationalism) evidence: calling a coworker from a bar to tell him he sucks that he chose to go to work over us, mumbling that a patient's daughter needs to suck cock (overheard by coworker-who luckily laughed), not filtering my hatred and desire to fire the new secretary that I'm pissed as all hell that my manager hired.
AAAAAHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!